C85 He is far away from himself again

He is far away from himself

He Ying looked at Zywane's handsome face. Zywane was a tall and big guy who once gave him great joy and passion. At this moment, was very close to Zywane, but he was also very far away from him.

He Ying's eyes gradually filled with pain, grief, despair, disappointment, loneliness …

They watched in silence.

Suddenly, He Ying threw herself into Zywane's embrace, held both of Zywane's hands and started to tremble uncontrollably.

Zywane could feel the warm, wet liquid on the back of his hand.

Zywane knew that He Ying was trying her best to suppress the emotions in her heart, trying her best to control them.

Zywane pulled back his hand and patted He Ying's back, "If you want to cry, just cry."

"Wuu ~ ~" He Ying couldn't help but cry out.

Zywane did not advise or comfort He Ying, and lightly patted her back.

He Ying cried more and more, from the initial suppressed convulsions to tears.

Zhang Weiming, among He Ying's tears, there was a lot. There were things that he knew and some that he did not, but they were more or less related to him.

He Ying's crying made Zywane feel an indescribable pain, a pain that came from the bottom of her heart.

Whatever the woman's motives, whatever she had done, she had been true and true to herself.

No matter how hard he tried to make things difficult for her, no matter how much he mocked her, she would always persevere, silently endure, and always smile at him.

He Ying didn't have anything to be sorry for.

But could it be that he had let He Ying down? And where did he let He Ying down? How should he face He Ying?

Zywane's heart was filled with contradictions.

After a long while, He Ying finally stopped crying and twitching. She raised her head and tousled her hair, her eyes red and swollen.

"I'm sorry that I let you down today." He Ying let out a long sigh of relief as he looked out the window at the dark night sky.

Zhang Wei pulled He Ying's hand and gently patted him: "Don't say that, He Ying, I know that you're feeling depressed and bitter in your heart, but it's all because of me, or perhaps it's even deeper because of me. I'm sorry, I'm very ashamed, I understand your crying, and I'll let you cry to your heart's content, because I want you to let go of all the depression and pain in your heart, and not keep it in your heart."

He Ying looked at Zywane gratefully: "Thank you for your understanding, you don't have to be sorry, nor do you need to be ashamed. I don't want you to feel pressured because of me, I don't want you to live happily because of me. All of my troubles and depression were brought on by me, and they were all fated. Everything that happened to me today was fated to be so, and I brought it upon myself. "

Zhang Wei held He Ying's hand, "Don't say it like that, you have a happy family, your own company, you have a comfortable life, you can't be a lover. We can also be good friends, those kind of sincere friends."

He Ying then leaned onto Zhang Wei's chest lightly and said, "Hug me tightly."

Zywane felt that He Ying's body was very cold and could not help but to open her arms wide and embrace He Ying.

He Ying put her ear close to Zywane's chest and said softly: "I can clearly hear your heart speaking, telling me, what an outstanding man you are, what an unyielding, strong man you are, what a kind and responsible man it is, but unfortunately, we are destined to only be able to pass each other by, to only be able to stay for a short period of time, to be able to have a moment of happiness."

Zywane caressed He Ying's hair, her chin on He Ying's hair, she did not say a word.

"I have a happy family, my own company, and a comfortable life. All of this sounds very enviable to an outsider, but to me, all of this makes me lose more and more of it as well."

Zywane's heart trembled, other than the distress He Ying felt because of him, there seemed to be a knot in his heart that was difficult to unravel.

He Ying pressed her body closer to Zhang Wei's embrace, as if she was trying to get warmth.

Zywane turned on the engine and turned on the warm air. Soon, the temperature in the car became warm.

He Ying was silent for a moment, then continued: "In order to obtain all of this, in order to obtain all of today, I had to pay a heavy price, lose my best friend, betray my morals, lose my own personality, humiliate the dignity of a woman, I am actually not a good woman, I am a bad woman who does whatever she can to pursue desires, desire and enjoy life, I can only let my own heart fall into a dirty swamp, I no longer have a tomorrow, I do not dare face tomorrow either."

Zywane analyzed He Ying's words. He Ying was probably referring to the matters between him, Zhang Xiaobo and the strong.

From He Ying's words, Zywane felt that the three of them had went through a lot and had gone through a lot.

What kind of hatred and love existed between He Ying and Zhang Xiaobo?

From He Ying's words, Zywane could feel his remorse, frustration, remorse, shame …

Zywane raised He Ying's face and used a tissue to wipe away the tears on He Ying's face: "He Ying, don't be like this, I don't know what happened in the past; I don't know what kind of woman you were before, but since I've known you, based on my feelings for you, based on your self-blame just now, I think you are a good woman. A woman whose conscience and morals all have a standard, you have your own dreams, your own dreams, your own dreams, your own love and hatred, your own world, these are all normal women that you should have. No matter what you've done before, no matter what you've done wrong before, in my eyes, you're still a good woman. "

He Ying looked at Zywane with her watery eyes: "Do you really think so?"

Zywane nodded his head, "Yes, this is the true thought in my heart. Life is like the clouds in the past, the past and the present happening every day, you are still young, you still have a long way to go, look ahead, do not need to immerse yourself in the pain and remorse from the past, learn from the lessons, face the reality. Facing today, facing tomorrow, your life is still colorful. Your future is still beautiful."

I know it's no longer possible for us to be lovers, and I'm slowly giving up on my fantasies. I've been trying my best to convince myself that I can treat you as a brother, a good friend filled with family and friendship. I hope that we can really become friends like this, but — "

"But you can't help it, can you?"

"Yes, you're right. Your heart can't help itself. Although you've reminded yourself repeatedly, your heart still can't control itself. Once you think of you, once you see you, your mind will be thrown into chaos."

Zywane smiled faintly, "This is the demon in your heart. The greatest difficulty for a man is to defeat himself. As long as you can defeat the devil in your heart, you will regain your freedom and happiness."

He Ying also smiled: "I will work hard, I will work hard. Believe me, I will gradually get used to it."

Zhang Wei nodded, "Of course I believe in you. I believe that we will become good friends that can talk about everything. We will become close friends that can help each other. We will become the model of pure friendship between men and women."

He Ying tapped Zhang Wei's chest lightly: "You really know how to say, you really know how to say too much. Your mouth, I wonder how many girls you have bewitched in the past, I wonder how many women you will bewitch in the future."

Zywane laughed out loud, "Ladies and gentlemen, please do not be enchanted by me. There is only one He Ying and he has already put me down, let me live for two more days."

"Heh heh," He Ying laughed. "You're still spouting nonsense."

Seeing that He Ying's mood had improved, Zywane felt relieved, and gently pushed He Ying away. "We should go back."

He Ying nodded and looked at the time: "Ya, it's already 1 in the morning. It's been so long."

Zhang Wei said as he drove, "Yeah, it's still too early for that. We can't turn back here. We can only turn back when we reach the exit."

He Ying: "That's right, then let's go forward, where is the exit in front of us?"

Zhang Wei opened the door for a while and looked at the signboard in front of him. "Exit, Xingzhou, fuck, we've run all the way to Xingzhou."

Zywane suddenly felt that it was funny, Chen Yao was currently in Haizhou, yet she had returned to Xingzhou.

"Xingzhou?" He Ying also saw the road sign: "You can drive, and come all the way here."

Zhang Wei: "We just met at that time, you know how to drive, and you also came to this Service Area, that time you directly caused me to get wet."

"Haha —" He Ying laughed, "Why didn't you say that I raped you?"

Zywane said, "You can't rape me. I have the initiative anyways. If I don't raise my head, you won't be able to do it."

Zywane suddenly thought about that night at the Baiyun Mountain Villa, how He Ying had tried her best to serve him but failed.

Men are always active in this matter, and women can only be subordinate and passive.

He Ying snorted twice, she was silent for a moment, and then suddenly said: "Oh yeah, the last time you mentioned, there was a tourist from Xingzhou, called Chen Yao —"

Zhang Wei glared at him. "What?" What are you thinking about? "

He Ying curled her lips: "What was I trying to figure out? I mentioned about it in front of Lao Gao two days ago, and I noticed that Lao Gao's expression suddenly changed."

"Oh?" Zhang Wei's interest was piqued. "Does your family's senior know her?"

"I don't know. I then asked Old Gao if he knew her, and he indistinctly said that he didn't, but from his expression, I guessed that he must have known about Chen Yao, probably because he was afraid that I would be jealous and didn't dare to admit it. However, in the tourism industry, people usually form groups according to their region, and there are very few horizontal connections between cities. It is also rare for Old Gao to be able to recognize Xingzhou as a tourist. "

Zywane suddenly remembered the expression Chen Yao had when she saw He Ying at the East Lake Resort Village. It seemed like she recognized He Ying, but He Ying did not. What was interesting was that Gao Qiang very likely knew Chen Yao.

What was going on? What kind of relationship was this? Zywane's mind was in a mess.

Zywane nodded, "I got it. Don't you worry about me in the future and stop talking about radishes. Why are you messing around?" I only know him, it's not like I have anything to do with him. "

He Ying answered: "I understand. In short, I will not interfere with your matters in the future, I will not touch or take your people, right?"

Zhang Wei was amused. "What you're saying is a bit of a leftist. Left-leaning doctrine."

He Ying sighed: "You are truly hard to please, even if you want to, you can't. You can't even if you want to, you can't if you want to.