312 Start Over

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CHAPTER 312

At first, he did not do anything much with her sitting on his thigh other than stare into her eyes. After some time, he smiled reassuringly into her eyes. “Jade, I miss you. I want to start over.”

“Xander.” She rubbed her palm against his cheek soothingly. He was such an adorable big guy.

“I know things hit off wrongly when we were at the peak of our relationship, he began, before drawing in a deep breath.

As much as he felt it was okay to speak to her, he was scared within. What if she still denies it? What if her contemplation...

No, he shook his head at her and smiled. “After the whole incident, I know I broke your trust and nothing can rewrite that, I tell you, but please my love. I would do anything for you. Just please, my love, accord me the opportunity to try again.”

“Xander, really there is...”

“No. I want to show you my sincere heart. I want to woo you in ways you cannot imagine. And not for sex, baby. I still won’t touch you until I can make you swoon head over heels more than what you did before for me.”

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A blush crept up her cheeks, recalling all the naughty intimate moments they had and how he made her crave his touch, his kisses, his foreplay and everything about him.

“Can we start again as friends?”

Her smile widened, revealing a set of her teeth. Wasn’t this all so interesting? She recalled back then when they started, he did not want friendship and just wanted her as his woman.

Look at how the tables had turned. It was such a funny thing called fate.

“Fine. Whatever you want. I would give you that chance. However, we are already friends.”

“I am good with that. Just know that once we finish this battle, I would chase you down with all that I have got. You shall see the wooing skills I have learnt over the past months.”

She hinted a smile in her eyes as she giggled at his response. “Okay. I look forward to it, Dragon Lord.”

“Good girl.” He exhaled again. “I miss you, Jade. So much. I miss telling you my problems, having you lie in my arms on my thigh...”

As he spoke, she turned fully, facing him and went ahead to straddle him. “Go on.”

“And I know you are angry at me, mad even for taking away the right to the love of your parents.” His hand reached up behind her to rub her back, tracing the lines of her vertebra column.

“I am mad, yes. But I do not hate you. I am angry but I do not want to, Xander. I understand this much that it wasn’t your fault at all.”

“I am sorry. It is my fault. Perhaps if I had gone to scout myself and found the ship, I would have noticed the loophole in the whole thing rather than giving my orders blindly and trusting easily. A ruler must know this.”

Why he was being so hard on himself, she didn’t know.

“And, in our line of business, especially dealing with the mafia, I ought to understand this thing, carefully.”

“You are not a mafia lord,” Jade corrected.

“I can be considered as one, my dear. I have ruled this city. My family has always been in charge. We control the mafia and the people to best keep things in order. Trust is but a fickle thing but I overly trusted the words of a man.”

The sound from his voice when he echoed that out loud, made her understand his hate towards humans.

“Man, yes. We humans can be just as fickle with trust but some are genuine.”

“Like your father?”

“Like my father. I bet he doesn’t hate you. He knew what his line of work was. But decided to always play it well. That is the kind of mafia lord I want to be.”

“It is dangerous but I believe if one does not have a good heart towards the people he leads then he is not fit to lead. I respect your father for that. And I shall honour him. You want to pay your respects to him?”

She heaved a deep sigh and trace her eyes away from him.

“I wish more than anything to do that, but we would be alerting Anders more and most importantly, Xander, I want to see them when I have brought our enemies down to their knees. Then I can face my family with my head lowered and high.”

“Okay. Whenever you are ready though. All I ask of you is not to kill. I do not think in the current state you are in it is advisable to do that.”

She furrowed her brows at his words. “Why?” She raised her brow when he did not answer her. “Xan, as much as it is your fight, it is every right mine. I must see to it they die by my hands.”

No longer was the sweetness in her eyes. Now all that remained was the fresh feel of bloodlust. She wanted to kill so bad and enact that revenge once and for all.

“It would break you further and you would never be the same once you take a life, my dear.”

“That is my decision. Besides, those that need to be put down, shall and will be put down by me. Just like my father did. He offered redemption a lot but when things needed to be dealt with, he hesitated not. I would not let Anders go free or be sent to prison.”

“Says who he is going to prison with me there? I would kill him, for you.” He wanted to free her from the rage.

Her gaze softened as she brought both hands up to his face and caressed him lovingly. “Thanks love, but I believe this fight is for me, dear. I would do it myself.”

The anger, raged through her eyes before they fluttered close and she pressed her lips softly on his.