CH 25

Warning // noncon

In the morning, business at the bar was cold and deserted. Gu Wei was cleaning up alone downstairs. The surrounding furniture looked neat and comfortable. He nestled into the soft sofa at the corner and picked up his guitar, singing “happy break-up”. 

The room on the second floor was locked. Yan Yi sat on the bed with his legs folded, feeling uneasy the whole time. With nowhere to place his hands, he held his finely-white soft toes as he lowered his head and waited for Lu Shangjin to blow-dry his hair. 

The soft drooping rabbit ear was held by a wide palm, feeling snug and at ease. But Yan Yi still didn’t dare to let go of his worries and enjoy such comfort, his body remaining tense. 

Lu Shangjin put down the hair dryer before sitting down and pulling Yan Yi into his arms. The little rabbit curled up into a soft tiny ball as he nervously leaned in close to the hollow of Lu Shangjin’s shoulder. 

Lu Shangjin hadn’t been so considerate to him for a very, very long time.

He had endured many years of struggling to pursue love. After the breakup, every time Lu Shangjin touched him, it would bring him pain. Gradually, he became used to the pain, just like embracing roses had to come at the price of bleeding. 

Lu Shangjin released soothing pheromones once again. He was actually very tired, but now, he could only ensure his sense of belonging and security through Yan Yi. It seems that only by letting Yan Yi’s tight body gradually soften in his arms, can his heart that almost withered from panic be redeemed. 

Yan Yi pressed his face gently against Lu Shangjin’s broad chest, enveloped in a narrow and safe space by the scent of Narcissus flowers. 

The heightened concentration of the glandular-dormancy injection had the side-effect of affecting one’s appetite. His thin and pale fingers remained as thin as before, hesitating in the sleeves of the bathrobe for a long time. He then lifted Lu Shangjin’s lapels extremely carefully, as if he didn’t want to be noticed by anyone, yet couldn’t help but want to hold him. 

The subtle movements fell onto Lu Shangjin’s eyes. Holding him, he changed his position and leaned against the head of the bed. He then put Yan Yi’s head against the hollow of his shoulder, caressed the thin back which bones could be felt, and pulled the quilt over Yan Yi’s shoulders. 

“Are you cold? You’re trembling,” Lu Shangjin bowed his head to kiss his eyelashes. 

Yan Yi was silent and didn’t answer, just quietly clasping onto Lu Shangjin’s lapel. 

He had also been held by an alpha with a high-degree compatibility. When Xia Jingtian held him, the highly-compatible pheromones blended together in an instant, like being deeply immersed in a soft and gentle land, intoxicated by psychedelic drugs, pulled by the spider-web’s attraction that was difficult to free oneself from. 

However, the current temperature was the warmth that he could not even find in his dreams, unable to resist at all. 

After pushing away again, Lu Shangjin would probably really leave. Yan Yi understood his patience; it had always been a luxury consumed faster than money.

“So obedient.” Satisfied at Yan Yi’s obedience, Lu Shangjin gently caressed his ears, kneading the thin and soft rabbit fur along the clean ear auricle. He picked it up and placed it to his lips, smelled the faint scent of milk-candy, and gave a rewarding kiss.  

Yan Yi trembled, his little rabbit ears flicked away timidly and shrank back into his hair.

Every night when he had curled up on the corner of the sofa to wait for Lu Shangjin, almost all the lights that could be turned on in the empty villa were on. Yan Yi was afraid of the dark, afraid of being alone, afraid that Lu Shangjin would not come home. 

When Lu Shangjin came back at two or three in the morning, Yan Yi would always startle awake at the tiniest sound and hurry over to welcome him with his flip flops on. 

Lu Shangjin just handed him his coat, stained with the smell of cigarettes, liquor and a disordered mess of pheromones, saying ‘I’m tired’, then went to take a shower and head to bed. 

Yan Yi hid the desert which he had just learned that day behind his back, hung his ears and silently watched Lu Shangjin walk into the bedroom without even looking back. 

No matter how good he was, he would never be able to achieve a kiss on his ear. 

Lu Shangjin found that the little rabbit in his arms was lost in thought. 

He lowered his head and pressed his lips against Yan Yi’s soft grey hair, kissed his ears, then held Yan Yi’s chin to lift his head. 

Yan Yi’s eyes held restraint, but there was a thin layer of water over his light grey pupils. 

“Can I kiss you?” Lu Shangjin asked in a low voice in Yan Yi’s ear, carrying a flirtatious and charming tone. 

“What…”

Lu Shangjin lightly touched Yan Yi’s moist lips, “Will you let me kiss here.”

Yan Yi was so nervous that he wanted to run away, but was led along by Lu Shangjin  with the tip of his soft ear before he lowered his head to suck the milk jelly-like upper lip. 

When they separated, Yan Yi shrank even smaller, almost burying his head into his arms as he hurriedly wiped the corners of his lips. 

Lu Shangjin gently patted his hair.

It had been a long time since he properly looked at Yan Yi that he almost forgot what his features looked like. At this moment, he found that these pale grey eyes were as charming as ever.

After years of refusing to realize his stubbornness, how can he become aware of his errors and turn back from the wrong path?

Ultimately, he didn’t love enough, and didn’t treasure him enough. He once regarded Yan Yi as forbidden property, not to be touched by others, but he drowned himself in sexual pleasures and commited debauchery as he gradually grew tired of the young boy he had once cherished. 

However, if the house becomes empty, and he couldn’t see the little rabbit waiting for him in the middle of the night when he looked back, he was like a bee whose beehive had been stirred, dying from agitation.  

But the little rabbit was always waiting for him. Even if he got angry occasionally and ran out, he would always come back after some coaxing. 

Even if it was more difficult to coax this time, Lu Shangjin still had this bit of patience. 

“Do you want to do it?” Lu Shangjin whispered in his ear.

“No…I…my body hurts, I don’t want to…”

The side effects left by the excessive injection of highly-concentrated inhibitors were that as the heat was temporarily suppressed, desire was replaced by pain. Every movement that Yan Yi made was accompanied by a stinging pain deep within his bone marrow. 

Anyone who had never been injected with highly-concentrated inhibitors wouldn’t be able to understand it. This kind of inhibitor could not be directly inserted into the glands, as an extremely high concentration would cause trauma to the gland cells. 

Lu Shangjin was incapable of understanding this kind of pain. He only felt that one should have sex to relieve the discomfort of being in heat. 

“I’ve missed you.” Lu Shangjin’s voice was low and gentle. Like a lighthouse phantom that was luring the ship astray, a mirage in the desert that draws people in deep, he stuck close to Yan Yi’s ear, leading him to fall step by step. 

His skin was fair, legs straight and slender, and a rabbit tail sat atop his tailbone.   

Lu Shangjin gently stroked the root of his tail. Yan Yi knelt crouching on the bed as he was being held down by his hands, his legs separated by Lu Shangjin. Ice-cold lubricant was poured into the clean and rosy back cave, before two fingers squeezed inside and expanded it. 

“Jin ge…it hurts…” Yan Yi’s hands were held behind his back, unable to resist. He looked back at Lu Shangjin with wet eyes and trembled as he begged, “I don’t want to do it, just hold me for a while.”

“It won’t hurt, it’ll be better soon.” Lu Shangjin bent down to kiss the clear contour of his spine through his skin, kissing down inch by inch to the tip of his trembling tail and played with it in a vile way. 

“Uhh!” Yan Yi’s body suddenly shuddered, the tip of his nose trembled slightly and his eyelids turned red. His hands were still clasped behind his back by Lu Shangjin. The clean and pink sexual organ between his legs swelled up, and Lu Shangjin held it in his hand as he rubbed it. 

“It won’t hurt, don’t be scared, I won’t let you feel pain.” Lu Shangjin comforted him patiently. He held his thick scarlet sexual organ against Yan Yi’s tender and narrow entrance, then pushed half the head inside. 

The expanding soft little cave immediately tightened up with fear. 

“Don’t be scared, be good.” Lu Shangjin gently touched the small tail in front of him, “Relax.”

Lu Shangjin had never been so gentle like this in bed before.

Sobbing, Yan Yi tried his best to relax his back entrance. A frighteningly thick meat stick slowly squeezed into the intestinal flesh, its tendons and veins rubbed against the fragile intestinal walls as it gradually opened up and filled the whole body. 

“It hurts…I don’t have the energy. I really don’t have the energy to do it…Jin ge…” While trying to swallow the whole of Lu Shangjin’s sexual organ, Yan Yi had already exhausted all his strength and weakly fell limp onto the bed, only relying on Lu Shangjin’s hand to lend him some strength. 

The heat that was suppressed by inhibitors seemed to have aroused. The pain in his bone marrow did not go away, but the desirable thirst to copulate appeared. 

Yan Yi’s kneeling posture made his waist and abdomen appear more slender. Lu Shangjin held him up and supported his legs, weighing them. 

“Ahh! It hurts, I can’t take it inside, don’t put it all in…” Yan Yi cried out sharply as he grabbed Lu Shangjin’s hand, holding on hard to prevent himself from falling down. 

He really had no strength. His body fell down and was completely pierced from the bottom to the top by the thick and hard sexual organ, directly poking into his reproductive cavity. 

Lu Shangjin held Yan Yi up and down. The little rabbit’s body was wedged onto the hard object of his crotch, and a thin layer of sweat emerged all over his body. 

His white buttocks flushed red from the collision as the red and swollen hole swallowed the huge monster. 

Yan Yi suddenly burst into tears as he hugged Lu Shangjin tightly, his fingertips scratching and leaving several red nail marks on his back.

“Jin ge…when can you…not bully me…”