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I think I must be crazy to feel like I'm helping them, too. No matter what happens between lovers, I'm an outsider, so why should I use myself as an excuse?

Everything that happened didn't give me enough time to regret. From the moment Mo Li smiled at me and excitedly left the room, I knew that my regret could no longer be used as a reason for me to forgive myself.

I wasn't very happy about the arrival of the Mrs. Smith. In these two days, I didn't have any right to speak. I only knew one thing, that I was a sinner.

"Ai Lisi, you better not blame yourself. It's not your fault."

Listening to what the Mrs. Smith said to me, I still could not recover my senses. It was indeed my fault, but no one said it was, so why? Why is that?

For the past three days, I hadn't said a word. I was lying in my own bed, and no one else had brought me anything I couldn't eat. I didn't even remember how the plaster on my feet had been removed.

Other than An Nuo, I can't think of anyone else that can come to my place. When Mrs. Smith came, I was still in bed, and I don't remember anymore.

Maybe I never knew that there was someone who cared about me so much and cared so much about my mood, but no matter what my mood was right now, I had to pull myself together.

"How is Mo Li?"

With my question, perhaps someone also waited for three days for me to receive the news that Mo Li was injured and was in her current state. What did I do right to make so many people worry about me?

It was because I encouraged her to go and find Guan Sheng. If it wasn't for my suggestion, she definitely wouldn't have gone to find Guan Sheng at a time like this, in such a hurry.

Mrs. Smith only told me that she was in a car accident, and that her injuries were severe enough that she might not be able to wake up for the rest of her life.

I didn't go to the scene of the accident. My feet were already healed, but I didn't dare to walk. I had to admit that if I were to leave the house now, I definitely wouldn't be able to find my own home.

My memory right now is very bad, I don't know how to get along with others at all, it seems that everyone is injured because of me, Mo Li is so innocent.

Professor Smith opened the back door for me and helped me take a lot of lessons. He signed his name and asked for leave, but the principal wouldn't force me to go to class.

Every time I take the exam, I think about whether I should write Mo Li's name down. But because of the accident, she has already gone back to her country to recuperate and temporarily rest from school.

Maybe I really am the Heaven Destroyer Lonely Star, and the people around me seem to leave me. I am once again the lonely me, learning how to keep a low profile, how to forget, how to not think about everything that will make me miserable.

Every time I get hurt, I have to get away from one place, or else I should have to take it all on, preferring that I be the one lying in the hospital bed right now.

Even after I removed the plaster at my feet, I still had not left my bed. Every day, I would eat the salad An Nuo made for me.

"Ai Lisi, is the salad today still to your liking?"

"Not bad."

I wasn't picky with my food in the beginning, but now, I also felt that the food that An Nuo cooked was not tasty at all.

I, who haven't gone out for too long, would actually feel at ease with myself today, this can be considered as a bit of comfort. Perhaps, once Mo Li returns to her country, I will be better off.

All I could do was pray for her every day. I didn't think about it at all. Today, when I decided to go out, I met people who came to my house.

"Mrs. Smith called me over. There's something I need to tell you."

Guan Sheng's voice made my heart clench, and I stood blankly in front of my own door, not daring to take a single step.

"I …"

I didn't dare to say a single word in front of him, didn't dare to ask him how was Mo Li, asked him how was he, and I didn't dare to pay any more attention to Mo Li.

I will remember what Mrs. Smith said when she informed me, "You better not let Sheng know that it was you who asked Mo Li to find him. He will be very sad."

I don't understand why I hid this from Guan Sheng, but seeing that Guan Sheng had come over, I knew that I couldn't say a single word. I was very despicable, so I chose not to say it.

"Mo Li is back for treatment. You still have Mo Li's things, I'll help her take them away."

I can't contact Mo Li, and I won't contact her either. When she wakes up, she'll naturally come find me, if she can forgive me.

I opened a path, asking Guan Sheng to come in and take Mo Li's things. Actually, there wasn't much, it was just a book that she left behind in the library. If Mo Li woke up, she would need these books.

Guan Sheng didn't display the slightest bit of goodwill towards me, but I still didn't understand why Mrs. Smith would allow me to hide this matter from him. No matter what, Mo Li got into a car accident on her way to find me, so I must wake up.

Guan Sheng himself is a doctor, he is still working in the hospital, but the person who went to save Mo Li was not him. I didn't even dare think about what happened that day, other than blaming myself, I did not do anything else.

"What have you been eating these past few days?"

I didn't expect Guan Sheng to open my house's refrigerator. Other than the vegetables that An Nuo had bought, the only other things that were inside the fridge were the things Mo Li had brought back, "Vegetable fruit salad."

Guan Sheng closed the refrigerator door, turned his head, and looked at the plate on my table.

"I should be tired of it anyway. Going out for a different meal?"

I took it as a casual question from him, so I nodded as if it was a matter of course. "Alright."

Guan Sheng put his hands into his pockets, looked at me with a serious face, and said, "If you feel remorseful because of Mo Li, then you don't have to make things difficult for yourself. It's none of your business, you're not driving the car."

I will not deny Guan Sheng's reason, because I have also used this reason to comfort myself, and it is precisely because I heard that it was impossible for me to meet Mo Li from him, that I thought of making me the reason for the two of them to meet again.

After all, I was thinking too much, and the two of them couldn't possibly not see each other, because they were family. Even if I didn't use an excuse, the two of them still wouldn't be separated.