Chapter 48

Fang Yu said he had to think about it, but he didn’t think about anything.

Before he had time to think about it, he saw only what Yang Lei looked like as he left, that despairing back, and that pricked his heart.

He knew that Yang Lei would do as he said. Tomorrow, Yang Lei would leave, would stay far away from him, and would disappear from before his eyes.

And then, they would eventually drift farther and farther apart, until they were like strangers…

Fang Yu couldn’t continue thinking about it. His chest heaved.

Could he bear not to see Yang Lei again? Could he??

Could he not understand his own mood when Yang Lei was hiding from him before, when Yang Lei went to Ding Wen’s place every day, and when he was at the balcony every day watching Yang Lei pass below him yet walk straight past?

Fang Yu was a man, a normal man. Until now, he still couldn’t tell what was between him and Yang Lei. Even if Yang Lei said that it was love, he still wasn’t sure. His reason and instinct made him uncertain. He couldn’t just define it like that!

But, when Yang Lei’s footsteps disappeared in the corridor, when Fang Yu was sure that Yang Lei would really never return, when Yang Lei said that he wouldn’t let him see him again after tonight, Fang Yu’s heart suddenly sank, sank to the very bottom.

When someone had brutally pointed a gun at his head, he hadn’t even felt this kind of feeling.

This was a kind of fear. A fear that spread from the bottom of his heart.

He was afraid of losing Yang Lei.

Fang Yu had never known he was this afraid of losing Yang Lei.

When Fang Yu chased him in the rain, he didn’t even know what he was doing. His mind was no longer working anymore. There was only one thought: Keep Yang Lei!

How could he keep him? What could he use to hold on to him?

Until Fang Yu opened that iron gate, entered the little building, and knocked on Yang Lei’s bedroom door, Fang Yu didn’t think about it. He seemed to be in an abnormal state. He had to see Yang Lei. He didn’t want to see that kind of expression on Yang Lei. That expression shouldn’t appear on Yang Lei’s face, much less be caused by himself!

When Yang Lei opened the door, Fang Yu completely gave himself up to instinct.

His instinct that moment caused him to pull Yang Lei tightly into his arms and kiss his lips.

For what the act of kissing represented, people in those days were comparatively more innocent than people today. Though Fang Yu was such a gangster, people like him were nonetheless simpler and more direct in their attitude towards feelings. Only people who were in love would kiss. Without kissing, it was sex, not love. So before, he had never kissed Yang Lei’s lips, and had never let Yang Lei kiss him. Even in bed, when their passion was difficult to endure and they were filled with the impulse to kiss each other, they always exercised restraint and avoided it.

Perhaps Fang Yu knew in his heart that, if they didn’t kiss, they could still lie to themselves. This was just “playing,” not making love.

But had Fang Yu never thought about kissing Yang Lei?

He had thought about it.

Many times when he pinned Yang Lei down and rammed between Yang Lei’s legs, saw Yang Lei’s face as he threw his head back, closed his eyes, and moaned quietly, and saw his partially visible tongue in his slightly parted mouth, Fang Yu would uncontrollably have the impulse to kiss him…

Just now, Yang Lei had kissed him. That kiss not only brought Fang Yu astonishment and shock, but also something complicated and unclear.

It was a feeling that Yang Lei unceasingly repeated in his dreams and also an impulse that Fang Yu had pushed down to the bottom of his heart…

Yang Lei was also stunned.

But he didn’t pause for a second. He tightly hugged Fang Yu and kissed him fiercely.

…What kind of kiss was it!

If the kiss between men and women were gentler and more touching, then the kiss between two men was completely crazy, wild, and direct. Both of their bodies that were drenched pressed tightly together. Their entangled tongues rolled back and forth on their lips, joining, with eagerness, desire, and impatience. Fang Yu tightly wrapped, sucked, and squeezed Yang Lei’s tongue mercilessly. Yang Lei kissed until his vision went black. He continuously moved his tongue, chasing Fang Yu, and was being chased by Fang Yu. They were like two fish that had come ashore from the water. Only in each other’s lips and tongue could they find the air to continue living. They were that inseparable, going back and forth, and sinking…

Yang Lei aggressively pulled up Fang Yu’s drenched shirt and pulled his belt. Fang Yu also roughly pulled up Yang Lei’s T-shirt and threw it onto the floor. They silently and impatiently took off each other’s drenched clothes as they kept kissing each other like they couldn’t leave the other. Until they were finally naked, facing each other naked, they hugged tightly and fell onto the bed.

Even though they were still wet with rain, even though their hair was already drenched, they couldn’t care about any of it. Only the other person remained in their eyes. Fang Yu pressed Yang Lei down, leaving his lips. Their lips that were glued together were finally separated for a moment. Fang Yu lifted his body, looking at Yang Lei. When Yang Lei’s lips left Fang Yu’s, he suddenly felt empty and a sense of loss. He raised his body to chase Fang Yu for a kiss. Fang Yu pushed him down. Fang Yu forcefully brushed up Yang Lei’s wet hair before his forehead, like he wanted to see his face clearly, and looked down at him. Yang Lei looked up at Fang Yu’s eyes. He was deeply immersed in Fang Yu’s gaze that was staring at him…

Fang Yu lowered his head and kissed him again…

Yang Lei wrapped his arms tightly around Fang Yu’s neck, and responded as though he were crazy…

They had done it on the bed many times, but this night, everything was different.

Rubbing, stroking, caressing, kneading, kissing… All of these couldn’t satisfy the other. Even though Yang Lei took Fang Yu’s erection and put it in his mouth, blowing him, Fang Yu was still restless and impatient.

He pushed Yang Lei away, pulling his lower part that was as hard as iron out of his mouth. He hugged Yang Lei and flipped him over. His place that was filled with male aggression pressed tightly between Yang Lei’s legs, but he didn’t know just what he wanted or what he should do to be satisfied.

At such a time, men were all instinctive animals. If lust couldn’t obtain a prompt and desired relief, that was really worse than stopping halfway. If it were a woman under him, at this time, Fang Yu would have already gone in. His lust had already reached the point where it couldn’t be endured. But facing Yang Lei, he couldn’t grasp the main point.

Right now, it was different from the previous “playing.” Right now, both he and Yang Lei were no longer hesitating, avoiding, or lost. There was only the desire for complete possession, only the urgent want to become one…

But Fang Yu also didn’t know how to possess a man. He only subconsciously felt that the rubbing and soothing like in the past were not enough. They were far from enough, far from possession…

Yang Lei detected Fang Yu’s restlessness and impatience. The strength of Fang Yu’s hands as he stroked all over Yang Lei’s leg and butt, Fang Yu’s burning hot and hard lower body that pressed tightly against him, yet had nowhere to go, all told Yang Lei that he wanted to go a step further, but he didn’t know how.

Yang Lei thought of that videotape. In the videotape, the place the two men were connected, the position as they thrusted in and out and joined together…

He didn’t know how many times he wanted to do the same thing with Fang Yu. That was really making love, really obtaining each other…

Before, Yang Lei didn’t dare to do it. He was afraid of scaring Fang Yu away, but now, he couldn’t endure it anymore.

He hugged Fang Yu and forcefully pushed him down. On the bed, Fang Yu was always in control, always pushing him down. But now, Yang Lei didn’t care about it. He wanted to have Fang Yu. He was nearly crazy from thinking about it.

Yang Lei panted heavily, kissing Fang Yu. As he kissed him hotly, he said by his ear with a trembling voice: “Fang Yu… I want…”

His heart nearly jumped out. Every one of Yang Lei’s words were trembling.

“…I want to go in…”

Fang Yu was silent for a moment. Fang Yu looked at him.

Yang Lei suggestively reached his hand behind Fang Yu to touch him. He knew that Fang Yu didn’t understand. He wanted to teach Fang Yu that two men could also insert and join. That wasn’t only the union of the flesh, but more the joining of souls…

That was really making love. No matter if it was the body or the heart…

“…”

Fang Yu was stunned, but he understood.

Without waiting for Yang Lei to make the next move, Fang Yu turned his hand over and clutched Yang Lei’s hand. He flipped over and pressed both of Yang Lei’s wrists to the bed.

With his face and chest dripping with sweat, the silent expression as he stared at Yang Lei shocked Yang Lei more than any words.

“…”

He and Yang Lei stared at each other. Fang Yu’s sexy face, filled with male strength and the desire to conquer, made Yang Lei sink silently.

If Yang Lei could be conquered by someone, then in this world, there was definitely only one person.

He had long been conquered by this person. A long, long time ago, before they even met, when he heard that such a person existed, when he thought that he definitely had to compete with him one day…

When he fought with him, when he heard him plucking the guitar strings on the other side of the field, when he was pulled onto his motorcycle and rescued, and when he sat with him on that large terrace, looking at the hidden sadness and loneliness in his eyes…

No matter what Fang Yu wanted, Yang Lei was willing to give it to him.

He didn’t care. As long as it was Fang Yu, he didn’t care about anything.

Only Fang Yu. The one person in this world who could make him do this was only Fang Yu.

Fang Yu leaned down and kissed Yang Lei.

Fang Yu kissed gently, meticulously, gradually becoming passionate and crazy…

Fang Yu grasped Yang Lei’s legs, spread them, and pressed himself between Yang Lei’s legs. That burning hot and hard place, moving like it was alive, pressed against Yang Lei’s behind.

Fang Yu was already ready. His eyes were bright red from being tormented by lust, but he was still forcing himself to bear it, looking at Yang Lei.

He worried about Yang Lei’s feelings. He still remained rational. Men had psychological barriers in accepting this. He and Yang Lei were both men, and they both understood…

Seeing the magnificent size of Fang Yu’s erection, Yang Lei was also not confident. But now, the thought of becoming one with Fang Yu occupied everything in his mind…

“…It’s okay…”

Yang Lei’s voice was hoarse…

“…Come…”

Yang Lei said…

Fang Yu’s chest heaved. He straightened his back, and suddenly squeezed his huge front part inside…

“…Wu!”

For a man like Yang Lei who had received all kinds of injuries in countless street fights and endured all kinds of pain, he was still unable to bear the extreme pain in that moment. He let out a low cry of pain.

Such a narrow and tight place, without any lubrication or preparation, and just suddenly and roughly thrusting in like that, could it not hurt?? Furthermore, Fang Yu’s size was larger than average.

If Fang Yu understood, he would know that he had to first lubricate. He had to use his fingers to slowly let Yang Lei adjust. Moreover, Yang Lei had never done this. It was Yang Lei’s first time.

But this was also Fang Yu’s first time. Fang Yu also didn’t understand. If he hadn’t met Yang Lei, in his whole life, he would never think about doing this with a man.

Hearing Yang Lei’s cry of pain, Fang Yu also felt bad. Suddenly thrusting in like this, without any lubrication, Fang Yu also felt pain. Being bound and surrounded by that extraordinarily tight place, Fang Yu’s lower body was bound until he was nearly at the edge of exploding. Fang Yu desperately controlled himself to control the impulse to thrust in deep all the way…

Fang Yu saw Yang Lei’s pained expression. He couldn’t bear to let Yang Lei be in this much pain. He hesitated and wanted to back out, but Yang Lei grabbed him.

“…It will be okay…”

Yang Lei’s throat was hoarse. He took a slow breath, feeling that he had adjusted a little, and motioned for Fang Yu to continue coming in.

Fang Yu hugged him tightly and lowered his head to kiss him. He reached out his hand and soothed Yang Lei’s lower part.

The pleasure from his lower part caused Yang Lei to gradually relax his body. Fang Yu felt Yang Lei’s body relax, and it was no longer as tense and rejecting down there. Fang Yu’s endurance had long reached its limit. He sank his waist forward and thrusted all the way inside.

“…!”

This time, Yang Lei forcefully endured it, swallowing his cry of pain back down his throat. He tightly knit his brows, sweat dripping down from his face, and endured this agonizing and sweet pain.

Pain was nothing. He only wanted Fang Yu to feel good. As long as Fang Yu felt good, he didn’t even care if he died on this bed.

Fang Yu completely entered Yang Lei’s body. He didn’t move. The two of them hugged tightly, feeling the unimaginable pulse coming from the place where they were connected.

This was a feeling that impacted both of them, yet it was so real and true that they would never forget for the rest of their lives…

They listened to each other’s strong heartbeats, heard each other’s rapid and rough panting, heard the sound of love and lust crazily increasing…

Fang Yu didn’t move. He was afraid that using force would hurt Yang Lei. Fang Yu controlled his desire to move and looked all over the head of the bed. He randomly grabbed the bottles on the nightstand and picked up a box of snake oil cream. He slowly pulled himself out and messily spread it on, then slowly went in.

With the snake oil’s lubrication, it was clearly much better than before. Fang Yu slowly went back and forth, looking at Yang Lei’s face. Yang Lei’s face was finally more relaxed. Yang Lei opened his eyes that were filled with sweat from the pain, looking at Fang Yu’s eyes that were filled with forced endurance and affection for him.

“…It’s okay…”

Yang Lei said hoarsely. With lubrication, Yang Lei could bear it a little. He saw Fang Yu hesitating and not moving. He hooked the back of his neck, getting up slightly to kiss him.

He and Fang Yu kissed, and the lower part slowly started to move.

At first, he worried about what Yang Lei was enduring, and only moved slowly. But gradually, after Yang Lei adjusted, the surging pleasure rushed up to Fang Yu’s mind like a tide, flushing away all of his rationality.

Yang Lei’s narrow and hot entrance was so tight that Fang Yu was unable to control himself. His lower body was tightly surrounded and encircled. That intense tightness and heat brought Fang Yu strong stimulation that he had never felt before. That stimulation made his lower part swell up and erect even more inside of Yang Lei’s body. Yang Lei clearly felt the thing that Fang Yu had buried deep inside his body swell even larger, even harder, roughly forcing him open, like it was invading and encircling its own territory… Every pulse that came from that place vividly reached Yang Lei’s body, affecting every one of his nerves, making him feel pain and pleasure…

When two men did this for the first time, doing it from behind would relieve some of the pain. But Fang Yu directly penetrated Yang Lei from the front. As he used the lubrication to thrust into him, he looked at Yang Lei’s face, looking at every slight expression on Yang Lei’s face…

Yang Lei’s face as he furrowed his brows and his pants and moans, brought Fang Yu great stimulation. Fang Yu moved faster and faster, his rhythm gradually losing control.

He started to thrust in and out without control, swaying his solid and strong waist. He pulled himself out of Yang Lei’s body. Before he pulled out completely, he suddenly thrusted in again, deeply thrusting into the deepest part… Yang Lei let out broken moans from his ramming. In the fierce pain, there was also pleasure mixed inside that could not be explained. Every time Fang Yu pulled out and thrust in hard, it made Yang Lei sink into madness…

The painful rhythm that also made one crazy coming from his lower body was so strong that it nearly made him numb. It caused Yang Lei to know the feeling of pain and stimulation. Compared to physical pleasure, the fact that he was one with Fang Yu made Yang Lei’s psychological pleasure surge to its climax…

Fang Yu looked at Yang Lei’s dazed face. He carried Yang Lei’s lower body. As their position changed, Fang Yu went in even deeper… While he continuously soothed Yang Lei’s lower body, bringing him pleasure, he used lubrication to expand Yang Lei’s tight insides. He forcefully pushed into the deepest parts like he was endlessly searching, splitting every hindrance there, until he deeply reached the end, unable to go in any deeper…

Fang Yu kissed Yang Lei deeply, his tongue entangling with Yang Lei inside his mouth. His erection pressed tightly against Yang Lei’s deepest part, forcefully turning and grinding…

He wanted Yang Lei to feel pleasure as well. He wanted Yang Lei to climax with him.

Fang Yu was making Yang Lei insane.

When Fang Yu went in hard, the blood that flowed when his lower part split open, along with the snake oil that Fang Yu had nearly used up, the obscene sounds that were let out in the moving and squeezing, the small building in the dark night was completely silent. No one knew about all the chaos and insanity that was happening in this dark room…

Yang Lei hugged Fang Yu’s back tightly. He was affected by Fang Yu from top to bottom. His lips that Fang Yu finally released let out pants and moans that were difficult to bear…

After the initial pain, in the intense copulation, in Fang Yu’s thrusts, when he unintentionally thrusted against that place that brought him pleasure, shooting straight up Yang Lei’s back, making Yang Lei’s body tremble involuntarily like he had been electrocuted…

“…Ah!”

Yang Lei let out an uncontrolled moan.

Fang Yu’s panting became heavy. He suddenly pressed Yang Lei down, lifted his leg and set it on his shoulder, and started to rush…

Fang Yu sank into a frenzy. He used all his force to pound into Yang Lei, quickly penetrating him. Yang Lei’s entire body swayed from his strength. That large bed with ornamental carvings also couldn’t handle such violent action. It creaked from the impact, swaying violently…

In the intense actions, Fang Yu’s sweat dripped onto Yang Lei’s naked chest. Fang Yu’s sexy face that was intoxicated by sexual love made Yang Lei ecstatic…

At the climax, Fang Yu let out a man’s wild roar. He thrusted deeply into Yang Lei’s deepest part, suddenly coming inside his body…

Yang Lei’s erection that was tightly rubbing against Fang Yu’s abdomen also quivered as it released…

They were both covered with sweat, panting for breath. Fang Yu hugged Yang Lei tightly. His lower part was still buried inside of Yang Lei’s body and hadn’t come out yet.

“…Am I already crazy…”

Fang Yu said…