Chapter 30

Fang Yu stared at them without moving, and Yang Lei and Ding Wen both saw him.

After Yang Lei momentarily froze, he walked over. For some reason, Ding Wen also followed behind Yang Lei and walked over.

“You just got back?” Yang Lei saw Fang Yu’s appearance, which was one of staying up all night and just returning from outside.

Fang Yu didn’t respond. He only glanced at them, expressionless.

Ding Wen always had a feeling of fear towards this Fang Yu. He felt that although this person was calm, there was a murderous nature in his bones that frightened others. It was very different from Yang Lei’s warmth and friendliness.

Right now, with just a glance from Fang Yu, Ding Wen felt a chill.

“Hurry back. I’m leaving first.” Yang Lei didn’t know what he should say to Fang Yu. He was also tired and wanted to go back home to sleep.

Yang Lei turned around and walked towards the road, and Ding Wen accompanied him, planning to walk him to the intersection.

Fang Yu suddenly opened his mouth.

“Yang Lei!”

Yang Lei stopped and turned around.

“Come here. I have something to say to you.” Fang Yu’s voice was very cold, without any intonation.

In Yang Lei’s memory, when Fang Yu used this tone to talk to him, it was when the two of them first met. Ice cold, flat, without any feeling.

Yang Lei glanced at Fang Yu, turned around, and walked back. Ding Wen hesitated for a moment, and followed Yang Lei.

“It’s none of his business. Tell him to leave,” Fang Yu said. His face was expressionless.

“Ding Wen, why don’t you go back first.”

Yang Lei turned around and faced Ding Wen.

“I’m fine. I’ll wait for you for a moment.”

Ding Wen was still insisting. He acutely felt that this was a subtle war. He didn’t want to admit defeat.

“Leave!”

Yang Lei was also impatient.

Seeing Ding Wen’s slightly hurt look, Yang Lei comforted him quietly: “I’ll come back another day.”

Ding Wen’s face brightened. He nodded, glanced at Fang Yu, and slowly walked away.

“Say it. What’s the matter?”

When Ding Wen left, Yang Lei asked Fang Yu.

Fang Yu didn’t say anything. Until he saw Ding Wen disappear inside of the neighborhood, Fang Yu turned around and walked forward.

After walking two steps, he turned around and saw that Yang Lei hadn’t followed him.

“Let’s go!”

Fang Yu suddenly raised his voice.

“Where to?” Yang Lei already knew.

“My house! Where can we go? Where else do you want to go?”

Fang Yu stared at Yang Lei. Yang Lei felt that this gaze was very unfamiliar.

“I want to go back home and sleep. You can’t say it here?” Yang Lei said. His heart was also unhappy.

“I can’t!”

Fang Yu said heavily.

Yang Lei stared at Fang Yu silently for a while and gave in.

He followed behind Fang Yu without saying a word. They turned the corner, one after the other, walked up the street, walked up the steps up to the large terrace on the second floor, and walked up the stairs, into Fang Yu’s house.

The whole way, not a single word was spoken.

When Yang Lei entered the house, Fang Yu closed the door.

Yang Lei’s mood was also very complicated, extremely complicated, and there was also a faint happiness that he couldn’t explain.

Actually, during this time that Yang Lei distanced himself from Fang Yu and got close with others, he had also thought about whether or not Fang Yu would care, whether or not he would mind a little. But Yang Lei also didn’t overthink things. The real intention of getting close with Ding Wen wasn’t to purposefully show off to Fang Yu. On the other hand, how would a man feel about his brother being close with someone else? He definitely wouldn’t feel anything.

He no longer went to visit Fang Yu at night, and Fang Yu had never expressed anything.

So, Yang Lei thought that Fang Yu didn’t care. Perhaps Fang Yu was originally embarrassed because of last time and thought that this right now was quite good.

But seeing Fang Yu’s reaction just now, Yang Lei felt that Fang Yu still cared.

Yang Lei couldn’t help the trace of complicated happiness in his heart. He thought, Fang Yu still cared about him.

Inside the house, the room was dark. There was only slightly bright daylight coming in from outside. Fang Yu didn’t turn on the light, and he didn’t intend to walk towards the inside of the house. The two of them just stood in the spot at the entrance. No one spoke.

“Didn’t you have something to say to me?”

Yang Lei opened his mouth first and broke the silence.

“You and that Ding Wen, just what is going on?”

Fang Yu’s voice was still ice cold, flat.

“What do you mean, what’s going on?”

“Don’t ask me. I’m asking you.”

“Can you not talk to me like you’re interrogating a criminal?” Yang Lei didn’t want to hear that tone of Fang Yu’s anymore. That tone made it seem like he had done something shameful. “What’s the matter with me and him?”

Fang Yu raised his head and looked Yang Lei in the eye, like he was enduring something.

“…You leave his place at this hour every day?”

“Yes, so what?” Yang Lei originally wanted to honestly say no, that today he had just chatted until late, but seeing Fang Yu’s gaze, there was clearly some doubt in his eyes. Yang Lei’s stubborn personality came up again. He spoke willfully.

“…What did you two do that you have to stay until morning every day?”

“If I said we were just chatting and playing on the computer, would you believe?” Yang Lei was impatient. He hated this interrogating tone the most.

“Playing on the computer? Yan Ge also has a computer. Have you ever played at his place overnight?”

“My boss uses that for business. Can I play around with it?”

“A computer, is it! I’ll also get one later and put it in here. Don’t you want to play on the computer? Then come over. There’s no need to run to other people!”

Fang Yu’s voice was loud.

Yang Lei raised his head, staring at Fang Yu.

“What do you mean?”

Yang Lei’s temper flared. In between Fang Yu’s words, there was clear disbelief that he went to Ding Wen’s place to play on the computer.

“Then what do you say I go to Ding Wen’s place to do??” Yang Lei stared at Fang Yu and asked.

Seeing Yang Lei and Ding Wen walk out of Ding Wen’s house together while the sky was still dim, and Ding Wen’s reluctance to leave in his movements and expressions, what could Fang Yu think?

Although Fang Yu had long known that Yang Lei went to Ding Wen’s house, and this made him feel very bad, Fang Yu had always believed that Yang Lei wouldn’t do anything with Ding Wen. Even though Ding Wen was the same as Hua Mao, and he was pursuing Yang Lei, Fang Yu still believed that Yang Lei wouldn’t mess around. Just like when Hua Mao pursued him in the beginning, he had rejected Hua Mao, but he was still brothers with Hua Mao. Yang Lei had spoken correctly. Yang Lei completely had the freedom to be friends with Ding Wen, to be normal friends.

The most important thing was, although Yang Lei and Fang Yu had “played” like that, Fang Yu had always thought that this would only happen between them. Because they were so “tight,” they would play like that, and it wouldn’t “go too far.” Yang Lei and he were both not like Hua Mao. Fang Yu hadn’t even thought about doing it with other people.

So towards Yang Lei and Ding Wen getting close, Fang Yu also chose to be patient.

Fang Yu wasn’t an unreasonable person. He didn’t overbearingly interfere with Yang Lei, even though he felt uneasy.

But, seeing the scene today, and hearing Yang Lei say he stayed overnight at Ding Wen’s place every day, Fang Yu felt like his head had been stabbed, a complete mess.

He started to doubt his own judgment!

“Did you also ‘play’ like that with him?”

Fang Yu blurted out, unable to stand it anymore.

Yang Lei’s brain was in a daze.

“…Play how?”

Yang Lei responded, his brain buzzing.

“You say how you played. How did you fucking play with me?!”

Fang Yu was emotionally impulsive, and even his gaze became scary.

“You’re fucking sick, aren’t you!”

Yang Lei cursed angrily. He turned around and was about to pull the door lock to leave.

Fang Yu grabbed his hand. Fang Yu turned Yang Lei and pushed, and forcefully slammed him into the door, holding onto his shoulder.

“Have you or have you not played with him?”

Fang Yu stared at Yang Lei.

“Speak!”

Yang Lei looked at Fang Yu. He thought that Fang Yu was the person who knew him the best, the person he was closest to, the person he loved the most, but this was what this person thought of him. He didn’t want to “play” with him, and he had accepted it, but he thought that he would play with others! If he didn’t play, then he would find other people to play with? What kind of person did he take Yang Lei for?! What did he take his heart for??

“You say whether or not I’ve played with him?” Even Yang Lei’s voice was trembling. “Say it!”

“Don’t ask me!” Fang Yu was also completely unable to control his enraged mood. It had already been many years since he had had such uncontrollable emotions.

“Fine! Don’t you just want to hear me say that I’ve played! I’ve played! I play every night! It feels much better than when I played with you! Are you fucking satisfied??”

Yang Lei roared. His whole heart was so bitter that it was about to burst. It was about to burst through his entire chest.

“What did you say?”

Fang Yu seemed not to have heard clearly, and he asked once.

“Didn’t you refuse to play with me? You still care about who I play with? I can find who I want. Is it any of your business?!”

Before Yang Lei finished speaking, the shadow of a fist swung over. Yang Lei instinctively wanted to dodge, but that fist wasn’t aimed at his face. With a “bang,” it heavily smashed into the wall next to him.

“…Who else have you played with?”

Fang Yu asked.

“Am I just one of the people you played with?”

If both people could have calmed down at that time, they wouldn’t go back and forth and become more agitated as they spoke. But when people’s tempers flared, it was like this. The more one was misunderstood, the more one would say the opposite of what was meant. Or when the other party was clearly speaking out of anger, in their rage, one wouldn’t bother to realize it.

“Fuck off!!” Yang Lei cursed harshly.

Content Advisory: Attempted sexual assault. Please skip to the next chapter if you don’t wish to continue.

His hand already swung out uncontrollably, but Fang Yu grabbed Yang Lei’s fist, twisted his wrist, grabbed both of Yang Lei’s arms, and pinned them behind his back. Yang Lei lifted his feet to kick, but Fang Yu had already used his legs to tightly pin him. Fang Yu’s hand fastened a struggling Yang Lei like iron, sticking close to Yang Lei’s body and restraining him to the door, immobilizing him. Fang Yu knew Yang Lei’s moves too well. Once Yang Lei moved his hand, he knew where he was going to move next. He held Yang Lei down, pinning him, staring into his eyes, his voice angry and pained:

“If I don’t play with you, then you’ll find someone else? You have to find someone to play like this with, don’t you? Okay!”

Yang Lei was angry, wronged, sad, upset, bitter… but being tightly pinned by Fang Yu’s chest and waist, the friction in the struggling, his lower body uncontrollably reacted.

A man’s body was always faithful to instinct. No matter how much Yang Lei kept away from Fang Yu, no matter how much he distanced himself, he couldn’t control his body’s desire for Fang Yu. Ever since he “stopped playing” with Fang Yu, they had never gotten so close.

Yang Lei’s breathing became heavy, and Fang Yu’s breathing also changed. Yang Lei could feel through his pants that Fang Yu’s lower part had also changed shape.

Fang Yu suddenly bent over and lifted Yang Lei up, carrying him into the bedroom, and threw him onto the steel wire bed.

Before Yang Lei could jump off of that bed, Fang Yu pressed onto him, on top of his body.

“Scram!! Didn’t you not want to ‘play’ with me! Didn’t you fucking want to be brothers?!”

Yang Lei didn’t even know what he had cursed.

“I also understand now. Isn’t it just to find excitement? If you don’t come to me, you’ll go to other people anyway. I was even afraid of corrupting you. I was fucking flattering myself!”

Fang Yu was also angry, roughly swearing.

“Today I’ll play until you’re happy! I’ll see if you still look for other people?”

Fang Yu held onto Yang Lei’s wrists and pulled them over Yang Lei’s head, grasping them tightly. With his knee, he parted Yang Lei’s legs. With a forceful pull, he pulled open Yang Lei’s dress shirt. The torn off buttons rolled all over the bed.

At first, Yang Lei fought against Fang Yu, but he suddenly gave up as if resigned. He thought, What was going on? He and Fang Yu had somehow gotten to this point.

Later, Yang Lei heard a saying, “The person you love the most, hurts you the deepest.” At that time, what Yang Lei was thinking probably also had this meaning.

Fang Yu pulled open his dress shirt, pulled away his undershirt, and pulled open his pants zipper. His movements were rough, without any consideration. The jeans zipper got stuck. Fang Yu used force and pulled it hard to the end. That pain stung Yang Lei’s body, and it stung Yang Lei’s heart. Yang Lei lay without moving. He suddenly felt a wave of unbearable sadness. He may have had this kind of sadness when he was a child. At that time, when his small heart felt sad, he would sob directly, but when he grew up, he knew to shed blood, not shed tears. It had already been many years since he knew what it felt like to shed tears. There were many times when he felt that he could possibly shed tears, but actually, nothing was shed. If he could cry, then it would be too cowardly.