C216 Pain and suffering

"You … How do you know that? " Plum stared with his red eyes, looking nervous and surprised at the same time.

Chu Tian's heart sank, it seemed like this matter was not fake, and was already confirmed, Mei Zi was truly pregnant.

"When I was looking for the charger, I saw the report of your In the drawer. There were results on it." Chu Tian said dejectedly, "You … "What kind of contraception did you take?"

Plum was a bit drunk, but he could still control his emotions. "I've been using aftercare contraception. I'm allergic to contraceptive rings, so I can't wear them …"

"Who's your baby? Old Fang? " Chu Tian looked at Mei Zi nervously. At that moment, he wished that Mei Zi could nod her head.

But Chu Tian was disappointed, Mei Zi rolled her eyes and looked at Chu Tian: Old Fang? Do you think he's capable of it? "

"Then it's mine?" Chu Tian looked at Mei Zi in despair.

"What do you think?" Mei Zi retorted Chu Tian, but she did not dare look at him, looking slightly nervous.

"Could it be that he was pregnant on New Year's Day?" Chu Tian's heart was filled with despair as his voice became powerless.

Plum nodded.

"The time is right …" Chu Tian muttered, "Could it be that the contraceptive method did not work? Or did you not take any measures at all? "

Plum raised his head, "In the past, every time we finished doing it, I would remember to take my medicine, but during those few days, Fang Liang and I were quarreling intensely. Furthermore, the medicine in our bag was gone, and we forgot to buy.

She lowered her head like a child who had made a mistake, and fell silent.

Chu Tian's heart continued to drop, becoming heavier and heavier. At this time, he couldn't even breathe.

The child in Plum Blossom's stomach was without a doubt his own. It was the seed he had brewed on New Year's Day.

Chu Tian was a little suffocated in his heart. He had come to the south for less than half a year and achieved nothing, yet he had already gotten pregnant with two women. Could it be that it was as Mei Zi said that day, that he was going to be a father?

Chu Tian roared out in his heart. No way, absolutely no way, he had not prepared for this yet, moreover, Sister Meng was still waiting for him, it seemed that happiness would come tomorrow.

Chu Tian poured a full cup of wine, lifted it and finished it in one gulp, then heavily placed the cup on the table and let out a long sigh.

Plum raised its head, the red on its face had faded slightly, it extended its hand to stroke its hair, opening its eyes wide as it stared at Chu Tian.

At this moment, Chu Tian did not dare to look at Mei Zi, because he knew that Mei Zi's eyes would be filled with questions.

"You don't have to be stressed, nor do you need to be burdened. I won't drag you down because of this." "Although you don't want me anymore, but I will have this child. This is the crystallization of our love, the witness of our love. I will give birth to him, and we will be together forever."

"Don't say anymore!" Chu Tian suddenly raised his head and looked at Mei Zi, he then poured himself some wine: "I will drink by myself, you don't have to accompany me."

Plum Blossom insisted on drinking, so she poured herself a full cup and drank it up along with Chu Tian.

Chu Tian picked up the bottle and poured himself another glass, then he shook the bottle. There was still a bit of alcohol left in it, so he lifted the bottle to his mouth and drained it of all its contents. If you really plan on having this child, you shouldn't drink so much. Don't you understand? "

Plum Blossom's face started to turn red again. Chu Tian touched her face with his finger and felt that it was very hot.

Chu Tian got up and poured Plum into a cup of water and placed it in front of Plum Blossom: "If I drink wine, you should drink water. If you can't drink water, you shouldn't try to show off.

Mei Zi pursed her lips and gritted her teeth as she looked at Chu Tian, but did not say a word.

At this moment, Plum's eyes were filled with curiosity, anticipation, and a bit of excitement.

Chu Tian raised his wine cup and drank it all, then pointed to the other bottle and said: "Open it for me."

Chu Tian's tone was overbearing.

Plum obediently opened the bottle of wine and wanted to pour it for Chu Tian, but Chu Tian had already snatched the bottle away.

Chu Tian filled his cup for himself and looked at Mei Zi. "Do you have any cigarettes?"

Mei Zi stood up, took out a Chinese strip from the cabinet, tore open the package and gave Chu Tian a box.

"It's not like you smoke. Why are you smoking at home?"

"I gave the leftover presents to friends before the new year. There are still 4 items in the cabinet, all of which are flexible." Plum carefully explained before finding a lighter and handing it over to Chu Tian.

Chu Tian took out a cigarette, but just as he lit it up, he stopped and looked at Plum.

"I'm not hungry. The food is already full. I'll go get you some food." Plum said, about to go into the kitchen.

"Bye." Chu Tian held Plum's hand, "I'm not hungry this time, I'm a little annoyed myself, I want to smoke and drink, and I want to think about something else. Smoking is not good for your health, since you're not hungry, go rest in your bedroom, okay?"

Plum knew how Chu Tian felt in his heart, and didn't want to be entangled with him any further. She understood that he needed some space to think on his own, and once she drank a few cups of wine, she wanted to lie down, so she nodded obediently and poured a cup of water in front of Chu Tian: "I'll go to my bedroom."

Chu Tian nodded.

Seeing that Plum Blossom had entered the bedroom and closed the door, Chu Tian raised his wine glass and drank it all in one gulp.

Since last February, when he started to quit smoking, Chu Tian had not puffed out a single cloud in a long time.

Chu Tian felt his mind was in a mess, the situation suddenly happened, he needed to comb through his brain.

Now a grim truth lay before him: Plum was pregnant and of her own kind.

Plum had already made it clear that they were going to give birth to their child, and they did not need Chu Tian to take responsibility.

Chu Tian faced a situation where Mei Zi was carrying her own child and did not let her take responsibility. Then, should she be responsible for it?

The answer is obvious, from the point of view of human conscience or the most basic human nature, one is bound to be responsible.

The question was how should he take responsibility, and how much responsibility should he take?

When he thought of this, Chu Tian's heart suddenly filled with fear. He fiercely took a gulp of the alcohol, fiercely inhaled the smoke, and then threw the cigarette end on the ground and fiercely stamped on it.

This matter was not Mei Zi's fault, and he could not be blamed either. What crime did a man commit crimes against women?

He could only blame himself for this. This was the result of courting death, and this was the benefit of having fun.

If, according to Mei Zi's words, she didn't have to take responsibility for herself, then it would be unfair to her for the rest of her life. It would be unbearable for her, and she couldn't imagine the child growing up without a father's love or family, or growing up without knowing where her father was.

The child was innocent, of course, and the guilty one was himself.

In the future, Mei Zi would take her child through a long journey of life. She would bear the heavy responsibility of raising and educating her child, but would not be able to enjoy everything that a woman deserved. This was clearly unfair to Mei Zi.

Plum was innocent, and the one who did the evil was himself.

Chu Tian stood up impatiently, took another sip of his wine, and lit a cigarette. He walked around the dining room and living room, and in a while, he would open the door and hear Plum Blossom breathing evenly.

Plum was too drunk to sleep.

Chu Tian quietly closed the bedroom door and returned to the dining room, he then brought the wine bottle and cigarettes over to the living room's tea table and used a disposable cup as an ashtray, drinking and pondering while sitting on the sofa.

According to his principle of being a person, according to his character, according to his character, he should be held responsible for this incident. He should fulfill his duty as a man.

For a grown man to act boldly and escape is the work of a vile character.

Chu Tian remembered that when Ye Na was pregnant, he had thought that if Leo broke up with him due to her pregnancy, whether he and Ye Na had any feelings for each other, he would definitely marry Ye Na.

Between being a person and doing something, he would choose to be a person. Between love and responsibility, he would choose responsibility. Choosing responsibility was choosing morality. It was choosing conscience. To be a person's least conscience.

Chu Tian was shocked by his own thoughts. Could it be that he was responsible for Mei Zi and had merged with her for the sake of their child?

What about Sister Meng? Where's Ying Ying? Tomorrow was the day of her and Sister Meng's blind date. It was the moment of her happiness, the first day of her life where love blossomed. Was she going to lose everything?

He and Mengjie were already in deep love with each other. A beautiful tomorrow and a blissful future had already begun. A passionate love was already flowing in his heart. Was he going to let this blissful feeling slip away quietly?

One side is responsible conscience, one side is happy love, one side is experiencing the present, the other side is looking forward to the future.

Between conscience, morality and love, where to go?

Between responsibility, essence and selfish desire, what choice?

Chu Tian paced back and forth between the alcohol and cigarettes, thinking and feeling numb. The contradictions and pain in his heart started to collide …

There was less and less wine in the bottle, and more cigarette butts.

Time slowly passed, from midnight to dawn.

Chu Tian paced back and forth in the narrow space.

Unknowingly, Chu Tian stayed up all night, his eyes bloodshot, staring straight ahead, his face full of smoke and dust, his fingers burning yellow.

When he finished the last drop of wine in the bottle, when he finished smoking the sixth cigarette, and when the city's clamor started to rise from outside, Chu Tian walked into the bathroom and used cold water to wet his hair, and his face that was covered in ashes …

Drying the water, Chu Tian looked at the mirror in the bathroom, staring at his sinister and ugly face, staring at his bloodshot and tired eyes, without moving at all.

Chu Tian just stared at himself, staring at the exhausted him in the mirror.

Unconsciously, two streams of murky tears flowed down Chu Tian's face.

A new day begins. Today is Valentine's Day, February 14.

Chu Tian knew that he wouldn't be able to escape today. What was coming would eventually come.

The mixture of alcohol and nicotine was flowing through his blood, attacking his tired brain.

Today was supposed to be a happy time for him to reap love. However, the God of Fate had dragged him to a corner of a valley, where he would be destined to become an eternal memory in his life, leaving a deep imprint.

Looking at the murky tears in his eyes, Chu Tian felt an incomparable pain in his heart. His heart felt as though it was being twisted by a knife, he knew what these tears meant, and he knew that he had made a choice after an entire night of suffering.

Actually, Chu Tian knew that he already had no other choice. From the moment he knew that Mei Zi was pregnant with his own child, he was destined to have only one choice.

Was it really as Sister Meng said, that all people are fates, and all happiness and pain are fated and unavoidable?

Was this his fate? Was he destined to make a difficult choice between duty and love? Was he destined to face the torture of conscience and the loss of love?

Chu Tian quietly pushed open the bedroom door. In the morning light, Plum was sleeping soundly.

Plum is not wrong, it is all his fault, this is all his due, he can no longer avoid it, he can no longer avoid it.