Chapter 57

Lin Ziran ignored the distraught Ning Bai, and drove away directly.

Ning Bai watched the green sports car leave suddenly, for a long time, showing a self-deprecating wry smile.

Yes, it's still over between them.

It's just not what he expected.

The one who brought up the closure.

Not him either.

………………

Lin Ziran thought to himself that if he has money, he is afraid that he will have nowhere to go? Thanks to Lu Maofeng for the 100,000 pocket money, he went directly to a five-star hotel and stayed there happily.

How can you wrong yourself by playing games? Of course you have to enjoy life!

Go out to eat and drink during the day, and come back to sleep and play games at night, so I am very happy.

It's just that Lin Ziran looked at his phone occasionally and sighed.

Lin Ziran, Lu's father and Lu's mother really didn't call me!

System you want them to call you? Don't you dislike them?

Lin Ziran, I don't like them, but Lu Xiaodong cares, why do you say that a child ran away from home? Do you think you really don't want that home anymore? After all, I still hope that someone will coax me...

Lu Xiaodong is just a child, whether he is flattering Jiang Xuan or pretending to be rebellious, he just wants to attract the attention of his parents, and he still cares about that family very much in his heart. Lin Ziran ran away from home now, and being unable to stay there was only one of the reasons. He probably also had a tentative mind, wanting to see if Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan cared about this child at all, but the result was really disappointing up...

He had already thought about how he should go back if they came to persuade him to stay, but in the end those two people didn't care at all!

Even he, a bystander, was so upset, one can imagine how sad it would be if it was Lu Xiaodong.

He was gone, dead, and no one cared at all.

The phone ding-dong.

Lin Ziran quickly looked down and sighed again.

It's not that no one cares at all, at least Ning Bai and Jiang Xuan still care, but he doesn't want to pay attention to these two people.

Because he doesn't care.

It wasn't what Lu Xiaodong wanted either.

………………

Xue Ze paced back and forth in front of Ning Bai's office, not daring to go in.

After Ning Bai came back the day before yesterday, something was wrong, and he asked to call out the surveillance camera to check. Only then did he find that when he was talking to Ning Bai that day, Lu Xiaodong actually came and brought coffee for Ning Bai, but he happened to hear Ning Bai said he didn't love him, so the kid threw away the coffee and left.

Xue Ze didn't think it was a big deal, the two of them were going to end anyway?

Just listen to it.

Who knew that Ning Bai seemed very sad after watching it, which was completely beyond Xue Ze's expectations, because Ning Bai has always been emotionally restrained, and rarely shows his emotions like this, and he clearly said that he didn't like it before, so why did he suddenly have a big attitude? What changed?

Although Ning Bai quickly regained his composure, Xue Ze could feel that he must be in a very bad mood right now.

Xue Ze sighed deeply.

Would Ning Bai regret it again?

I told him not to be stubborn long ago, this time he shot himself in the foot with a rock, right?

If Lu Xiaodong hadn't heard those words, he would regret it now and chase it back, but it's hard now! Now that Ning Bai confronted Jiang Xuan because of Lu Xiaodong, the person he liked misunderstood him and ran away, why bother? I really can't find happiness for myself...

What are you talking about?

Xue Ze just wanted to scream up to the sky!

He shook his head and was about to leave, when he suddenly saw a middle-aged woman approaching. The woman looked rich or expensive in her clothes, but her eyes were bloodshot and her face was haggard. The deep nasolabial folds made her look a bit mean and old.

Xue Ze has seen this kind of woman a lot. A middle-aged lady whose husband cheated on her, could it be that she is here to file a divorce lawsuit again?

Business is coming!

Xue Ze walked over immediately and said with a polite smile, "Hello, what can I do?"

Feng Wan looked at him hesitantly, and said, "I'm looking for Ning Bai, and I want to know which office he is in."

Xue Ze said enthusiastically, "Just tell me what you have to do. I am much more professional than Ning Bai in this area..."

Feng Wan said, "I am his mother."

Xue Ze "..."

Xue Ze led Feng Wan to Ning Bai's office in a daze, with weird eyes, coughed lightly and said, "Well, there is a lady here who claims to be your mother..."

Ning Bai looked up at Feng Wan, and after a while, said lightly, "I see, you go out first."

Xue Ze couldn't help but look at it, it really is Ning Bai's mother! Could this be Ning Bai's biological mother? It's just that Ning Bai didn't seem very surprised...

Xue Ze was full of curiosity.

But he didn't dare to stay in Ning Bai's cold gaze for long, he quickly closed the door and went out.

Ning Bai looked at Feng Wan and said indifferently, "Please sit down."

Feng Wan stared at Ning Bai in a daze, with tears in his eyes, hesitantly daring not to go there, and said cautiously, "I, I want to come to your place of work and get to know you better. I haven't seen you for so many years. really miss you……"

Ning Bai remained silent.

Feng Wan tentatively said again, "Do you want to go home with your mother? I've cleaned up a room for you..."

Ning Bai looked at the woman in front of him, twenty years had passed, she still seemed to care about him as always, begging him to go back so cautiously, but Ning Bai only found it ridiculous.

She loves him.

There is no doubt about it.

It's a pity that this love is no longer what he needs.

Ning Bai's voice was cold, and he suddenly asked, "Where is Lu Xiaodong, do you know?"

Feng Wan was startled, as if he didn't expect Ning Bai to ask Lu Xiaodong, a little caught off guard, "He, he's not at home these days..."

Ning Bai's eyes were covered with a layer of coldness, and he said word by word, "Then have you looked for it?"

Feng Wan concluded.

Every day she was thinking about how to see Ning Bai, how to persuade Ning Bai to go home, how could she have time to care about where Lu Xiaodong went?

Ning Bai could guess everything just by looking at her.

The cold current engulfed the anger in his chest, which made him almost unable to restrain himself, unable to maintain a calm expression.

After such an accident, didn't you ever think about another person who really needs you at this moment?

Just because the child doesn't mind, do you take it for granted that he doesn't need attention?

Some people may just use that appearance to disguise their inner fragility.

He ran away from home, but you are still indifferent.

Ning Bai spoke slowly, with suppressed anger in his voice, "I think you should understand one thing, the relationship is not only maintained by blood, but also by the company for a long time... I am no longer your son, but he But I have been with you for twenty years, which is more important, you should know it well."

Feng Wan saw that Ning Bai was unhappy, afraid that he would feel cold-blooded and heartless, so she quickly explained, "I care about him, but he has always been like this, so nothing will happen, and he will come back when he runs out of money in a few days. do not worry……"

Came back after running out of money?

Is that what he looks like in your eyes?

Even if it is a dog, after twenty years of raising it, you should know that it is not enough to give it some food, but in your eyes, does Lu Xiaodong only want money? Why have you never thought that what he wants is your love?

You never know how to love someone.

Ning Bai seemed to suddenly understand why the boy became like this.

He just needs presence.

So exaggerated, rogue, and rebellious, dressed himself up like that, pursued himself desperately, even if he was not good at pretending to be a bad boy, he actually just wanted attention, eyeballs, and someone Love him because these are the things he will never have at home...

It's a pity that I didn't know this at the time.

Ning Bai closed his eyes, and said in a cold voice, "Go, don't come here again."

Seeing his indifferent appearance, Feng Wan finally panicked, and pleaded nervously, "Xiaobai, mom really misses you, can you forgive mom..."

Ning Bai's eyes were indifferent, and he suddenly smiled, staring at the other person's eyes, "You should say this to another person."

Another person who really cares about you.

not me.

Ning Bai turned around and opened the door. As expected, he saw Xue Ze who was guarding the door and eavesdropping. He said coolly, "I'm here to help see off the guests."

Xue Ze smiled awkwardly, but immediately cleared up his expression, turned to Feng Wan and said seriously, "We still have to work, if you have nothing else to do, please leave."

He was already clear about Ning Bai's attitude, so he naturally wouldn't show much respect to Feng Wan, and at most maintained a superficial politeness.

Feng Wan didn't want to leave, Xue Ze looked at her with a polite smile, but his eyes were very firm, and in the end he could only turn around and leave.

Xue Ze personally sent Feng Wan to the elevator, watched her go downstairs, and then rushed back to Ning Bai's office, with two big characters of curiosity written all over his face, "Is she really your biological mother?"

Xue Ze has known Ning Bai for a long time.

Ning Bai's current parents are adoptive parents. It's no secret, everyone knows it, and Ning Bai never hides it. Even though Ning Bai is not the biological child of the Ning family, the Ning family couple are tolerant and gentle, with noble character, and Ning Bai himself is very smart and hardworking, so it has been going smoothly for so many years, and no one asked him about his biological parents.

Ning Bai himself never mentioned it, never looked for it... Everyone thought that Ning Bai's biological parents had died long ago.

So when Feng Wan appeared, Xue Ze was really surprised.

Looking at Ning Bai's attitude towards Feng Wan today, Xue Ze felt that Ning Bai's childhood memories should not be very good, otherwise he wouldn't be so indifferent, right?

After all, they are related by blood.

Xue Ze had various guesses in his mind, but he didn't dare to ask, he just stared at Ning Bai repeatedly.

"By the way, if she is really your biological mother, you have been separated for twenty years, right?! There was no news for so many years, how did she suddenly find you? It's amazing!" Xue Ze exclaimed.

Ning Bai finally spoke, and said lightly, "It's not amazing."

Xue Ze "?"

Ning Bai said slowly, "It seems that Jiang Xuan has not been idle during this time."

Xue Ze's expression finally turned serious, "You suspect that Jiang Xuan investigated you and exposed this matter."

Ning Bai lowered his eyes and remained silent.

When Jiang Xuan warned him last time, he was still careless. He did not expect that Jiang Xuan had already planned at that time. In order to get Lu Xiaodong, he did not hesitate to expose such facts. Eastern opportunity.

At this time, that child must be in need of comfort and companionship...

Ning Bai closed his eyes and opened them again, suddenly let out a self-deprecating low laugh, and said to Xue Ze, "Do you know whose mother that woman was?"

Xue Ze looked confused, isn't it yours?

Ning Bai said literally, "She is Lu Xiaodong's mother."

Xue Ze was really shocked this time, he almost fell off the chair, his face turned pale, and he said tremblingly, "You, you, you put your own brother to sleep..."

Ning Bai solemnly corrected "Lu Xiaodong was adopted."

Xue Ze let out a long breath, and wiped the cold sweat off his forehead, "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's a good thing it didn't make a big mistake..."

Ning Bai had a bitter smile on his lips.

Yeah?

Even this, is it something to be thankful for now?

But what you said is wrong, in fact, my fault has already been cast.

From the day we met, maybe the result of today is doomed.

Ning Bai said, "Go out, I want to be alone for a while."

Xue Ze nodded, and then said worriedly, "Tell me something, and I will help you find a way. Don't hold it in your heart alone, okay?"

Ning Bai didn't answer.

He sat on the chair for a long time, his eyes fell on the phone.

These days, he sent Lu Xiaodong a lot of messages, but Lu Xiaodong never replied.

This did not surprise him.

But he couldn't control it, he always wanted to watch, what if the other party replied?

When did he start to worry about a few words of a person, expecting and panicking like walking on thin ice.

Ning Bai raised his hands to cover his eyes, and twitched the corners of his mouth mockingly.

He couldn't fall asleep. He had been working for three days in a row. He was obviously tired, but he couldn't close his eyes.

Because as long as you close your eyes.

Then he returned to that nightmare again.

………………

The woman insulted the man while fighting, "You like that kind of vixen, don't you? I've seen it for a long time. It's just a secretary. She's dressed up all day long, with her breasts and legs exposed. It's not a serious thing at first glance!"

While dodging, the man said guiltily, "I just lost my mind for a while, I'm sorry, I promise there will be no next time, I will fire her now!"

The woman was even more angry, "You said the same thing last time! As a result, you fell in love with another woman in the blink of an eye!"

The man laughed dryly, "That..."

The woman cried hysterically, "How can you do this, are you worthy of our mother and child? I worked so hard to give you the money to start a business, I will give birth to you, and take care of the housework for you. Is this how you repay me? Lu Maofeng, don't forget that the company also owns my shares!"

There was a hint of displeasure in the man's eyes when he heard this, but he still coaxed him patiently, "I understand, I understand everything, I'm sorry, I will make it up to you in the future. Huh?"

The woman is still crying "I love you so much, I love you so much, how can you betray me?"

Ning Bai just stood aside and watched quietly, like a bystander.

Watched this scene again and again.

Watching the man cheating, being discovered, the woman insulting, and the two entangled.

Watching absurd farce again and again.

The cycle goes on and on, without end.

Betrayal, quarrels, jealousy.

It became the deepest imprint in his childhood heart.

Have men ever loved women?

Maybe it was love.

But his love could not stand the test of time, nor could it withstand the temptation of the outside world.

A couple who were once in love, after repeated betrayals and deceptions, eventually turned into resentful couples who hurt each other.

They hated each other so deeply.

But refused to separate.

Every time a quarrel is over, the woman will wash her face with tears. Maybe she knows in her heart that that person doesn't love her anymore, but she can't leave him, she can't leave this home, she has paid too much and can't get out... …

She gave all her love to the man, so she couldn't accept his betrayal and leave.

She always hugged him in the dead of night, and murmured one sentence after another, "Xiaobai, mom only has you, mom loves you, you will always be with mom, right?"

He let the woman hold him.

Listening to her nervous babbling voice, watching her shed tears again and again, being hurt by the man again and again, and finally hugging him in despair and sorrow, saying, Mom only has you...

He thought he was really important.

Until the man cheated again.

Ning Bai couldn't remember how many times this was.

The farce escalated again and again.

Every time a woman will be more hysterical and crazier than the last time, she can't get out of the pain of being betrayed, she doesn't know that some people's nature is hard to change, and she doesn't know that this will only make herself more painful.

I don't know how to let go.

This time she was even more noisy, scratching the man's face, the man finally lost his patience, and pushed the woman to the ground, "You're never finished, I said we'll break up."

The woman went crazy, she suddenly saw Ning Bai at the side, rushed over and grabbed the child, pointed the scissors at him, and yelled frantically, "I'll kill him, and then die with him!"

The man finally became anxious, and immediately lowered himself to be a kid, "Calm down, the child is innocent."

The woman laughed hehehe, "When you cheated, why didn't you think that the child is innocent?"

The man hurriedly said, "I did it wrong, but those things have nothing to do with him! Why do you involve children in adult affairs! I promise, it will never happen again, this time I swear to you! It's all those women Seduce me, actually I only have you in my heart, I love you."

But the woman didn't believe it at all. As soon as she used force, the sharp scissors cut Ning Bai's face, and the blood flowed down immediately. She yelled at the man, "Don't come here, I'll kill him if I come here!"

The man didn't dare to approach, backed away, and said anxiously, "Let go of him first, we have something to talk about!"

Ning Bai was hugged by the woman, let the scissors cut his face, he didn't struggle, on the contrary he was very calm, although he was a little surprised and sad, but that's all.

The man's repeated promises, betrayals, and deceptions finally caused the woman to completely collapse, but since she hated the man so much, why didn't she drag the man to hell with him instead? Just because he was born by her, and her blood flowed on his body...

So his life should also be hers.

Is it right?

He was the tool she used to threaten men, the bargaining chip she used to threaten men...

Do you really, love me that much?

Or, do you love me so much that you want to be together even to the point of death?

Is this love?

Once again, this farce ended without a problem.

The man promised again and again that he would not.

But Ning Bai knew that this would not be the last time.

This time the man settled down for a long time. After nearly a year, he came home on time every day and never went out to fool around again. The woman looked much better. She still chose to forgive. The man who loved her came home.

But there are some things that should happen sooner or later.

A man unspoken rules female subordinates in the company's office, was discovered.

That day, the woman took him to the company to find a man, and it was so unfortunate that he ran into him.

But Ning Bai thinks that this is not a coincidence. If something looks like a coincidence, it can only be said that this incident has happened many times, but it just happened to happen one of them, which seems to be a coincidence.

The woman quarreled with the man again.

She was very disappointed and painful.

On the same day, he took Ning Bai and left home.

They went to another city, and the woman rented a small room, and lived with him, hugging him every day to wash her face with tears, sometimes crying and sometimes laughing.

She said, I love him so much, I have paid so much for him, why would he treat me like this...

She said, your father will definitely come to us, he will definitely come...

She said, Xiaobai, you will always be with your mother, right? You are the only one for mother, you are the person mother loves most, the only thing left for mother is you...

Women don't really have much money.

The man didn't find him for a long time, so she had to go out to find a job. Because she didn't know the place well, she was afraid of losing her child, so she locked Ning Bai at home alone.

Ning Bai couldn't go anywhere, and stayed in that small room less than ten square meters every day, day after day, from day to night, waiting for the woman's return.

His whole world is only her.

Darkness and her.

She is very gentle and nice to him, but she won't let him go to school, won't let him go out, won't let him out of her sight...

She was so afraid of losing him.

She was afraid that he would disappear in the blink of an eye. She cared about him to the point of sickness.

She would tell him over and over again, Mom loves you.

Ning Bai thought, I believe it, because you are the one who will drag me along even if you die.

I believe you love my...

That's how they live outside.

Maybe the man was looking for them, or maybe he wasn't. Ning Bai didn't know about it, and he didn't really care about it. He was just tired of it all.

The so-called love is just a knife used to hurt people.

What is love?

Betrayal, deceit, quarrel, jealousy, hurt... everything is in the name of love.

He loathes this morbid relationship, any relationship that binds both parties.

He loathes that man.

If you don't love someone anymore, if you can't be consistent, don't make promises to someone casually, don't say you love her, even if you are a little ruthless, it's better than cheating again and again, let the person who loves you do it for you The mud foot is deep, unable to get out.

He loathes this woman.

Why do you want to love someone who doesn't love you? Why can't you leave in time when the other person doesn't love you? Can't he just let go?

But what good is disgust?

He can only watch all this keep happening, keep repeating, powerless... His world only has endless betrayal and quarrels, and that small room that cannot leave, and a woman hugging him tightly, holding scissors to cut through His face, the determination to take him to die together.

Women really love him.

But Ning Bai thought, I would rather you not love me so much.

It was a weekend.

holidays.

The woman is on vacation.

When she came back from outside, it was rare for her to take him out of the room. They went to the shopping mall, where there were many people, and Ning Bai hadn't seen anyone other than a woman for a long time.

At that moment, he suddenly didn't want to go back.

Don't want to go back to that room again.

So when the woman wasn't paying attention, he let go of her hand abruptly and submerged into the crowd.

farther and farther away from her.

He heard the woman calling his name frantically, and he heard his name being called on the radio... But his heart didn't fluctuate, he just looked at the woman sitting on the ground crying from afar.

Then, turn around and leave.

Ning Bai suddenly opened his eyes, his pupils constricted, he opened his mouth and breathed rapidly, his chest rose and fell slightly, that almost endless nightmare has tortured him for more than ten years.

He didn't think about it until later.

He has left that place.

left early.

No need to watch men and women hurt each other and blame each other...

Marriage is like a cage.

In the end, the person in love becomes beyond recognition.

He raised his hand and gently touched his face, the wound there had already healed and could not be seen anymore.

But the wound on my heart has scabbed over and is always there.

Even the word 'love' would make him physically uncomfortable.

He doesn't like women, because women are a troublesome thing, if he falls in love with you, he would wish to drag you to die together.

He doesn't believe in love, the so-called love will only become bondage, making people ugly because of jealousy and suspicion.

If you can't love only one person, if you can't live without betrayal, then don't love others.

He doesn't need anyone to love him either.

Later he met a lot of people, never emotional, only looking for the same kind, they each get what they need, they don't talk about love or love, and they don't make any promises to each other, because promises that can't be fulfilled will eventually become lies.

Become a knife that hurts the ones you love.

That's fine.

Fascination will make a person passive, and love will make a person lose his mind.

No love, no harm.

He won't make the mistakes they did.

He's also been doing really well.

Keep all relationships at just the right boundary... stay away from anyone who says you love him, and don't love anyone.

That way you won't get hurt.

Nor will it hurt others.

He always keeps this in mind.

Do not cross the threshold one step.

Until that day in the bar, a handsome boy followed him, all the way to the downstairs of his house.

He is enthusiastic, well-behaved, and obedient, no matter how hard he drives him away...until he finally accepts him.

He accepted the person he didn't like originally.

It was you who took the initiative first, and you who approached first.

All love at first sight is love at first sight.

Although I know you are just on a whim, but I don't mind... because I can't give you more things, we each take what we need, and then separate before being tempted.

Everything is as if nothing happened.

He thought so.

But yourself, are you really not tempted? If you are not tempted, why rush to withdraw? Why dare not admit it?

Ning Bai closed his eyes, and let out a low bitter laugh from his throat.

He thought that twenty years ago, when he let go of the woman's hand, he had left there forever, but who would have thought that he would come back after going around...

It turned out that after he left, another child appeared there, who had endured everything that he should have endured instead of him.

Only at this moment did he understand.

It never really ended.

It turns out that this is really a nightmare that will never wake up...

And I was still moved.

Fall in love with someone.

That person, happens to be you.