C241 A lantern on a small beach

After coming out of Xu Jie's room, I took a taxi and headed towards the small beach in the river. During this time, I called Little Fei, Dong Dong Dong, and Yang Wei, and told them to gather at the small beach in the river river.

Because today is Saturday, Dong Dong and Yang Wei didn't need to go to school. When they received my phone call, although they were puzzled, they still expressed that they would go.

Along the way, Xu Jie kept asking me where I was going. I didn't tell her, I just told her that I would find out once we were there. When we arrived at the small beach in the river, it was already around 9 PM.

Xu Jie and I got off the carriage and I led her down the beach. Dong Dong, Yang Wei and the Little Fei had already arrived, so Xu Jie and I went over.

Yang Wei then said: "Fuck, what is going on? You did not explain it clearly and made it so mysterious."

Dong Dong Dong joked, "It can't be that you want to propose to Xu Jie, right?

After he said that, Xu Jie looked at me in surprise. I explained that I wasn't, then Xu Jie rolled her eyes and said that she wasn't, so she left. I quickly pulled her and made her wait a bit.

At this time, Little Fei looked at Xu Jie and said: "Xu Jie, I have never had the chance to apologize to you regarding the matter with Uncle Xu.

Xu Jie shook his head: "You don't have to say sorry. We didn't even think about that kind of thing happening."

The Little Fei heaved a sigh of relief and thanked Xu Jie. Xu Jie waved her hand and then looked at me: "What are you bringing me here for?"

Just as I was about to say something, Swallow drove the Mitsubishi Jeep over. As soon as we got out of the car, he asked us to help him with the trunk, so I hurried up, and the four of them followed me.

After we brought down the beer and some snacks from the swallow cart, Yang Wei took out one of the boxes and said: "Eh? Isn't this a light? "Swallow, no way. You want us to put on the light now?"

Swallow spread out his hands and said, "I was told by little brother to buy it, I don't know if I should let it go."

Then, all of them looked at me. I nodded with a smile, and Xu Jie said a little angrily: "This is what you said we should do now? I'm not in the mood to put something like that on display right now, so why would I think that it's a problem?

After saying that, she prepared to leave. I pulled her and said, "Listen to me, okay?"

Xu Jie looked at me suspiciously but did not say a word. I took out six lamps from the box and gave them to each of them, and as I did so, I said: "We need to complete the memorial ceremony that we did not complete previously, we need to heal our wounds, we have already lost too much, especially recently, I feel that we have become numb, we escape, we are joking, pretend that nothing has happened. We tried to ignore our feelings, but we are unable to change it.

Xu Jie said helplessly: "So you want to light up Kong Mingliang?"

I nodded. "That's right, we need to light the lamp. When I lost my parents, my sister used to bring me to this place, and she would buy two lamps and tell me that these are wishlights. As long as I light them, I would be able to release my sorrows."

As I said this, I lit the candle in the lantern and closed my eyes. I said to Kong Mingliang, "This is for my brother Dai Hui, I hope that he will have a good time in heaven."

Afterwards, I passed the fire engine in my hands to Dong Dong. Dong Dong smiled and received the fire engine and also lit up the lantern in his hand. He said: "This is for Han Lingxue, I hope that her illness can be cured soon."

After nodding, he gave the fire engine to Little Fei, who also lit it ablaze: "This is for Lily."

Then it was Yang Wei who also took the fire engine and lit up the lamp. He looked at us and said, "This is for Brother Hei Zi."

"This is for all my friends who have met with misfortune, Dai Hui, Han Lingxue, Hei Zi ge, Lily, Brother Hu Tou, I hope that they can become lucky. As for me, I hope that I can be promoted to red stick quickly, and Su Mo as well, I hope that he will be with me forever, and little brother, I hope that he will be."

When Yanzi said this, we all laughed. Scolding Yanzi's greed had ruined the atmosphere. Yanzi laughed out loud and said, "It's rare to make a wish. Why don't you do it once and for all?"

After that, the five of us boys looked at Xu Jie, and Xu Jie helplessly sighed. Looking at us older children, he didn't know what to say, but she also picked up a lantern, and after lighting the candles in the lamp, she took a deep breath, and said sincerely: "This is for my father, for all those of us who have lost, and for myself."

After lighting the candles, we stood in a row, counted one two three, and together we let go of the lamps in our hands. These five lamps, with the last warm wind of November, floated into the sky, and I knew it would be useless to do so, but at least it would make us feel better.

I know what we are, little kids, it's like lighting a candle and everything's going to be okay, stupid, delusional, pissing off little kids, but youth is like that, it's like a ritual, we don't believe it, but at least we need a memorial ceremony, like telling ourselves to hypnotize themselves, and everything bad will pass.

At the very least, we really needed to release our sorrows at that time. This group of us has endured too much, and I always felt that very few people's youth could be as brazen and reckless as us. Some were laughing while others were crying.

Many years later, I will remember that at the age of 17, we held the lamp, making those unknowable promises. Regardless of the final outcome, we would not regret it, because at least in the instant we released the lamp, we were saved.

That night, as we drank beer and talked about our thoughts and dreams of the future, Yang Wei said that he was going to join the army. We were all surprised to hear this news and asked him when he had decided.

Yang Wei held his beer and laughed: "I guess a few days ago, my family told me that, they felt that it was useless for me to continue reading, so they let me join the army. Originally, they wanted to tell me about it in a few days, and since today everyone is here, I'll tell them about it by the way."

I looked at him with reluctance. "When are you leaving?"

Yang Wei said in a week, I will say, have you told Zhang Yiyi about this yet, Yang Wei shook his head, and said that he has not, and only planned to tell her about it on Monday, so I did not say anything. Yang Wei patted on my shoulder and said: "Little brother, don't be like this, it's not like we are not going to meet each other, you know? But now that you have grown up, you don't need my protection. No matter what, I am still your brother, so you have to listen to what I say: whether it's Dong Dong, Yan Zi, Little Fei, or even the new school's Li Jiaxin, they are all good friends worthy of befriending. It's good, you have a good relationship with Xu Jie, this little girl likes you so much, you cannot let her down. "

I nodded, and Yang Wei happily said, "Alright, brothers, stop worrying. Come, let's do it!"

Dong Dong was the first to raise his wine cup: "Have a pleasant journey, Viagra!"

Under Dong Dong's lead, we all toasted to Yang Wei. After Yang Wei finished speaking, it was Little Fei's turn. He said: "I will be leaving for the day before.

When I heard that, I scolded in anger, "Fuck, all of you should leave. All of you, scram!"

Little Fei was amused: "Alright, we are all not young anymore, and naturally we have our own paths to walk, if I wanted to say something, Viagra has already helped me say it, but there is a sentence that I have to add, no matter where you go, you are all my big brothers, and all this time, thank you for taking care of me."

When Little Fei said this, he was choked with sobs. After doing this, we could not help but tear up a little. Even the strong Little Fei secretly wiped away the tears at the corner of his eyes.

Xu Jie leaned on my shoulder and didn't say anything, but I could tell that she was a little unwilling to part with Little Fei and Yang Wei. After all, they had been together for a year, so she and I were already used to having these people by our side.

I picked up a bottle of wine and said to them, "Alright, brothers, let's go and stay. I always know what kind of banquet there is, but I always hope that time can go by a little bit slower and that we can get along a little longer, but no matter what, since we have already decided on the way, let's follow that path. I will do it first!"

After I finished speaking, I finished drinking all the wine in my hands. Yang Wei and the others also stood up and drank all the wine, and after that, we all tacitly stopped talking about these things, chatted and boasted. It was as if we had returned to that month, that campus, where nothing had changed.

That night, we drank very happily, at least on the surface. After that, I sent Xu Jie home, and when we reached the entrance of the house, I confessed to her about Zhao Shuang, who also expressed her forgiveness. She also told me that she would not go abroad with his mother, and that she would stay by my side forever.

Then, I looked at her without saying a word. She said, "Little bro, I know what you're doing. I'll be strong enough to face these realities and won't use those drugs to confuse myself anymore. Don't worry, I'll definitely quit!"

When I heard what she said, I was so happy that I went up to her and hugged her. Then I kissed her downstairs, and the moonlight fell on her and me, as if it were a sign of hope, and drove away all the despair that had built up in our hearts.