Chapter 23 My Resolve

"....."

Time to get going I guess..

It says I can't go into it, so it will be useless of me to try breaking through.

Not like I can actually break through it in the first place.

Also, whatever or whoever is in there is certainly a dangerous entity.

The gigantic metallic gate and new skill I just got says it all.

I am not ready to stick my head around for it to get to me.

I should start climbing my way back up instead of just standing and staring at the big gate.

With a conflicted feeling welling up inside me, I turn my back to the giant door and make my way to the wall, ready to begin climbing back up.

I placed my two palms on the wall and activated the thorn Manipulation Skill.

The thorns came out of my palm but was unable to attach itself to the wall.

My plan was to use the thorn to climb my way up, but now that that is not working, I will have to use my nail claws.

I placed my claws on the wall, getting ready to climb but I was met with the same outcome.

My claws would not stick to the wall as I wanted it to.

no matter what I did, I kept falling off of the wall.

It is too steep and hard for the thorn or my claws to pierce through.

damn it...

Nothing is ever going my way today.

First I met with the scorpion that almost killed me and then I get rejected by a big gate telling me I am not eligible enough

"....."

Fuck it...

Fuck this all....

You can go suck my ass for all I care.

Who told you I want to be eligible to begin with.

You are just a big freaking ass gate and you still dare think you have the gut to tell me if I am eligible or not.

Fuck, you.

I placed my five fingers on the wall and produced thorns from all ten fingers.

I shaped the thorns like a drill to dig my way through the walls.

Shit...

Why is it not working damn it.

I bash my fist against the wall multiple times while knowing that such an action will do nothing to help the situation on ground.

I continued bashing while screaming at the top of my lungs.

it is annoying....

Every damn thing is annoying.....

why am I like this?....

I am conflicted as to what this feeling welling inside of me is.

Why am I being like this?..

This is so unlike me.

I cannot seem to calm my mind nor do I have the free will to think rationally like I always do.

what the fuck is wrong with me?....

I am annoyed,

I am pissed off.

But at who?.....

Am I pissed off at the giant gate that shunned me saying I am not qualified and eligible?....

why am I this pissed of?.....

why is everything around me pissing me off?...

Damn I wish everything would just end.

No, no, no.

I have no time to think such thoughts.

My priorities right now is getting out of this hole.

I continued trying to climb back up with no luck whatsoever,

Before I knew, water was dripping down from somewhere.

I raised my head upwards to see where the water was coming from but there was no trace of it, and yet it was still dripping.

what is going on?...

how come there is water dripping on my face and yet I can't find the source of it?.

uhhh.....

No way....

The water is coming from my eyes?...

how can that be?...

What is this?.....

What the hell is this?....

Am I crying right now?.....

Wow.....

This is an awesome discovery.

Who would have thought that goblins can shed tears.

But why am I crying?....

I do not see a reason for me to cry so why is the tears still pouring down.

My life right now could not be any better.

At first I was weak, but after going through countless experiences, I became strong enough to assure my tomorrow.

I have no reason whatsoever to start crying right now.

This tears are just acting up on their own without my consent.

Damn it this is embarrassing.

Even if I look like a green teen, I seem to be forgetting that I was once an adult.

How can I be sobbing so loud like a child.

Instead of the tears, what I should be more focused on now is getting out of here.

"....."

damn it, damn it....

This is the second time now,

The second time I am having to question my struggle after being faced with overwhelming authority.

First was with miss dragon,

She did not kill me because I can never pose a threat to her.

The second is this damned gate.

It refused me passage because I am not eligible.

why can't it be me?....

I have tried everything possible just so I can stay alive so why do I have to take shit from others.

I am so frustrated and suffocated.

I feel like their answers are a denial to the actions I have taken so far.

I...

I...

I want to be stronger.

I never want to be denied by anyone ever again.

I never want to be looked down upon by anyone ever again.

I want power.

I want to be even stronger than I am now.

It is not enough for me to just wish for it.

I want and will do whatever it takes to get it.

Gate, you reject me today because I am not eligible enough, but I can assure it won't happen again.

The next I come here,

I will forcibly open you up with my power.

I will never again let you reject or make me doubt my existence.

***

Sitting on a throne made of skulls and bone, is a green monster.

Canine teeth, a huge and thick muscles, with a dominating pressure.

[Ding]

[A prophecy has been enacted]

[he has arrived]

[he who shall question your command and renounce your authority has awaken].