Qi Lu was stunned and wept: "yes, what I envy most is her. When she was studying, she had an excellent boyfriend like Zhao Qiwei. After I robbed Zhao Qiwei, she also met a man who was as precious to her as a pearl."

"I tried hard to get what I wanted, but I never got it. And she easily got what I wanted."

For Chen sec, Jiang Chan didn't evaluate anything. She looked at Qi Lu snuggling up to her leg: "what about you? Do you still try hard to get a man's love again?"

Qi Lu's eyelashes trembled: "I don't want to put my life on men. After seeing some of your experiences, I found how narrow I was in the past."

"Anyway, little cicada, you will accompany me. I have you, this child and my father. I have no regrets in my life."

Jiang Chan sighed silently. She has experienced so many worlds. She has seen couples who love from beginning to end and clients who have been hurt like Qi Lu. However, it has to be said that the latter makes her sigh more.

"Love is equal. Lovers love themselves first. Happy love is that both sides become better, not the other side's compromise."

"When you were talking about your marriage with Zhao Qiwei, you used a word, failed marriage." Jiang Chan leaned on her back: "I don't think marriage is judged by failure or success, but by your happiness."

"I'm not happy." Qi Lu's tears suddenly burst out. "In other people's eyes, I should be happy. I came from a powerful family. My father is the mayor. Later, my husband also achieved the position of department and bureau level. His external reputation is very good. I seem to be a successful woman."

"But I'm not happy. We just maintain a superficial marriage. In fact, it's very empty inside. Can you imagine? A model husband in the eyes of outsiders has been sleeping in separate rooms with his wife since they got married, and it's even clearer at home."

"The home is divided into two areas, which do not interfere with each other. When necessary, play a loving husband and wife in front of outsiders. When you get home, you are the stranger without any communication."

"He didn't eat any of the food I cooked. He would rather cook noodles by himself when he came back. He never wore the clothes I washed for him again. This long cold violence exhausted me."

"Perhaps the only thing I should be thankful for is that he at least gave me a face, that is, he didn't get any small three or four out outside." Qi Lu wiped his face carelessly: "I know, it's Chen seconds that still can't be put in his heart. No matter how many years we've been married, Chen seconds is still the white moonlight that can't be touched in his heart."

Listening to Qi Lu's vent, Jiang Chan could feel what life she had lived before. To be honest, I can't stand such a long psychological torture.

"I really can't stand it. I have no children, no relatives, and my lover is in vain. My depression can't be confided like anyone, because once I tell this to others, his future will never be preserved."

"So you finally chose such a decisive way." Jiang Chan pinched Qi Lu's wrist and seemed to see the bright red again.

Qi Lu trembled: "I really can't hold on, little cicada. I'm a coward. I cowardly draw temperature from others and crave warmth, but what I can bring is black and blue. When I feel my body getting cold, I think I'm finally free."

"I asked myself countless times, have we ever loved?" Qi Lu smiled mockingly. "Later, I finally came to a conclusion that Zhao Qiwei didn't love me. He married me under the pressure of my father, but he didn't love me."

"But I naively think that time can change everything. I don't know that this is the biggest mistake. If you don't love, you won't suffer many grievances because of how many things you have done for him."

"So, in this new life, I don't want to establish a close relationship with anyone anymore. Because I'm not sure if I can manage a good marriage after I've been hurt so much."

Jiang Chan sighed: "it doesn't matter. You're doing well now. We can make money first to make ourselves financially independent, and then slowly enrich our personality and make our spirit independent."

"When we are strong, secular vision is no longer important to us. Your biggest mistake is that although you are financially independent, your spirit is not really independent."

"As you said, it's foolish to place your hopes on others. Only yourself can be relied on. It's getting late. It's time for you to rest."

Qi Lu covered the quilt and only showed a pair of eyes outside: "it's really much better to speak. I've never talked about these words with others. It's great that you can understand me."

Jiang Chan: "if you are willing to talk to Lao Qi, he can understand."

Qi Lu blinked: "still can't, saying it will only make him sad. Originally, he worked hard, and I can't bear to let him worry about my affairs again. I've done it all over again. Can't I live my life well? Then I'm really a failure."

Jiang Chan softened her heart for a moment. Maybe in others' opinion, Qi Lu has a big temper and is a little charming. But it's not without advantages. She still knows how to be considerate.

But these concerns are hidden under the charming character. You can't see the soft side of her without knocking on her heart.

Jiang Chan smiled: "it's time to rest. If you don't sleep, your baby should protest."

Qi Lu: "I'll sleep now!"

Maybe it was the ups and downs of emotions on this day. Qi Lu's long breath came from the room in less than five minutes. Jiang Chan sat on the desk in front of the bedroom, holding her head with one hand, calculating her future plans.

The bedroom door was quietly pushed open, and Qi Zheng came in quietly. Jiang Chan sat on the chair without dodging. Of course Qi couldn't see her, and she was very sure of it.

By the faint moonlight outside the window, Qi Zheng looked at Qi Lu's sleeping face, sighed for a long time and went out.

Looking at Qi Zheng's back, Jiang Chan pursed her lips. Is this her father's love? His mouth will not say it, but will hide it in his heart. Only in the dead of night can he vaguely feel his inner thoughts.

Qi Lu didn't sleep well. She woke up several times at night. But when she saw Jiang Chan sitting by the window, her mood returned to calm.

Maybe when she sees Jiang Chan, she will have a sense of reality and know that she is really able to start from scratch.