Chapter 46 - Failed Her Motherly Duty

"What? Why would I be ashamed of my daughter? I will never feel ashamed of you, not then, not now, not ever. I am not like that brainless swine that called himself you father. There there, calm down. Stop crying mum is here now," Jiang Meilin tried to prevent her own tears from rolling down so as not to prolong her daughter's tears. Two women crying is not a pleasant sight. One must be strong for the other or they would look like babies.

"I am so sorry mum. I let you down again," Bai Renxiang sobbed harder. Patting her back soothingly, Jiang Meilin hushed her, "I thought we had passed this stage already. Stop shouldering all the responsibilities and behaving like an unfilia child. You did not let me down in anyway. Infact, I am the one that let you down. Okay stop wasting those crystal tears and tell me what lead to your, you know," Jiang Meilin hinted at her pregnancy. "And don't say you have no idea because that is a big fat lie. Now take deep breaths and narrate. But have some water," Jiang Meilin poured her a glass of water from the hug on Bai Renxiang's bedside table and passed it to her.

After drinking the water, Bai Renxiang took deep breaths like her mother had said. Still fondling with the cup and her head still lowered, she began to explain. "It started when I came home and saw you lying almost lifeless on the floor. I rushed you to the hospital and you were checked. The doctor said you had kidney cancer for a while and it had grown worse. It turned out that your drugs was not healing the cancer but worsening it. I was told told that you needed a transplant as soon as possible because your kidney would soon fail," Bai Renxiang explained.

"Fortunately for us, the hospital was giving our free kidney for people who couldn't afford it and I only had to pay the bills and the surgery will be carried out and that was where the misfortune lied. Father had freezed all my accounts and took my credit cards. So I had no money but I told the doctor that I would find some and pay for it."

"Did you-"

"No, I would never. It did not even cross my mind to sell my body because I knew you would kill yourself if you were to find out about it," Bai Renxiang quickly stopped what her mother was thinking and continued.

"But since I had no one to turn to as everyone including my so called friends had abandoned me, I decided to ask one person for help. It was Bai Ming. I have her a call, we discussed it and she agreed to give me the money the next evening at a club since I did not have an account to receive transfers. I went to the club, Bai Ming pleaded that I have a drink with her and I agreed as a sign of gratitude for her willingly to help me but that was my biggest mistake," Bai Renxiang tightened her fingers around the poor glass cup.

"I started feeling weird after the drink so I excused myself thinking that it was because I was pressed. On my way to the restroom, I was bundled by two sturdy men and forced into a car and they sped off. They brought me to a room in a hotel where a man was. When I asked him what he wanted, he said something about me being an offer to raise Bai Ming's status."

"That b*tch. Have she not done enough by ruining my marriage? Now her daughter wants to ruin you," Jiang Meilin fumed. "It's alright mother. Calm down now," Bai Renxiang coaxed her mother before. "So the child belongs to that man?" Jiang Meilin asked in a low voice.

"No and I thank God for that. Before he could do anything to me I escaped and ran from away. I entered an empty room and all I was thinking of was to strip myself so that I could be free from the heat the had spread all through my body, including my lower abdomen. I was drugged," she stated.

"I wanted to just drink water or pour some on myself to keep me sober. I headed towards the bathroom but before o could open the door, someone from the inside did. I can't remember his face but I all I could remember is us tangled up on the bed. When I woke up later, reality hit me hard. I had lost my virginity to a stranger," Bai Renxiang choked on her tears. Jiang Meilin hugged her again. Her child was suffered because of her.. She had failed her in duty as a mother for the second time. What kind of a mother was she?