Chapter 162 - Tired

The moment Lucy stepped into her bedroom, she collapsed on her bed and shut her eyes. She was exhausted. Perhaps it was because of the time she had spent in the company of her boss, or maybe she was just mentally exhausted after revisiting her past and sharing part of her experience with Tom. 

She needed to confront the past that she had tried so hard to keep locked up for years. She needed to face everything that had happened. That way she wouldn't have to faint or go into shock merely by thinking about it. Perhaps she should consider the doctor's suggestion and ask him to get her a psychotherapist? It wouldn't hurt to give it a try. 

Once Lucy made up her mind to give the doctor a call the next day, she sat up on the bed and picked up her phone once again to check if there was a text or call from Tom, and then she recalled that she had missed a call from Lucas earlier. She dialed his line and connected her earpiece to her phone before plugging it to her ears and resting her back on the headrest of the bed with both eyes closed. 

"Hey, Lu!" Lucas greeted in his usual distracted tone once he received her call.

"I missed your call earlier. What's up?" Lucy asked unable to hide the tiredness in her voice. 

"Are you okay?" Lucas asked with a concerned frown and dropped his pen to give her his undivided attention when he heard her voice. 

"Yeah. I guess I'm just exhausted. Had a really busy day at work today," Lucy explained with a yawn.

"Then you should rest," Lucas suggested.

"Sure, I will. Why did you call earlier?" Lucy asked, reminding him once again that he had called her earlier. 

Lucas narrowed his eyes as he tried to recall why he had called, "Oh, yes! You will never guess who walked into my office today," Lucas said excitedly, making Lucy open her eyes. 

"Who did?" Lucy asked curiously when she heard the excitement in his voice. 

"Your boss's parents! I was so surprised by the coincidence of it all," he said, making Lucy's brows furrow in surprise.

"Really? Why were they at your office?" Lucy asked, and listened as Lucas explained it all to her, only leaving out the fact that he had given them an invite to his wedding. He wanted it to be a surprise to both her and Sonia.

"Wow! It's a small world, I guess," Lucy said when he was done telling her about it.

"Yeah, it is. I should leave you to rest right now," Lucas said, and Lucy smiled. 

"How is Rachel doing?"

"She's okay. Just busy with wedding preparations. I will tell her you sent your love. Let's talk some other time, okay? I love you," Lucas said.

"Sure. I love you too," Lucy responded before hanging up the call. 

Once she hung up and dropped the phone on her bed. She stood up to take off her clothes, but the phone started ringing once again. She quickly picked it up. Her heart skipped a beat when she noticed that it was a call from Tom, and she quickly received it.

"Hey, baby!" Tom greeted, feeling really guilty about what he was doing.

"Where have you been? Where are you?" Lucy asked, sounding both relieved and upset at the same time. 

"Something urgent came up and I had to go out of town. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you woke up. How are you feeling now?" Tom asked, feeling even more worried about her now that he could hear the tiredness in her voice. 

Lucy's heart squeezed in her chest, and she closed her eyes against the tears that had gathered in her eyes, "I don't know. I'm just tired," she confessed in a shaky voice which broke Tom's heart. 

Tom remained silent for a while as he tried to come up with a reasonable and helpful response, "Do you want to tell me about it?" Tom asked.

"I... I only want to see you," Lucy said as she raised a hand to her face to wipe the tears which had slipped from her eyes. 

Hearing her request, Tom's heart fluttered in his chest. How was he going to be able to stay away from her when she say words like this? He couldn't. "How about you rest for today, and then I can send someone to pick you up tomorrow so that we could meet somewhere?" Tom suggested.

"You won't be back home tomorrow?" Lucy asked with a worried frown. 

Tom raised his hand to scratch the back of his head, "Uhm... I quit working as your driver today. And I'm moving out of the apartment too," Tom said, and her heart skipped a beat.

"Wait, what? Why? You said you were only going to quit after getting the lady you want. Have you talked to her already?" Lucy asked, hoping he hadn't done so yet, as she still needed him. 

Tom cleared his throat. Maybe it was time to start clearing up the lies one after the other. She was going to get angry with each lie he confessed to, but it was better than her being confronted by them all at the same time, "I lied."

"You lied? About what?" Lucy asked with a confused frown, her heart beating really fast in her chest. Although he had told her he hadn't been completely honest with her on some things, she felt nervous hearing this.

"There is no lady. I only said that so you would relax and stop putting up your defenses so much around me," Tom confessed.

"I'm not sure I understand what you are saying," Lucy said, feeling even more confused now.

"I'm not interested in any lady," apart from you, he silently added to himself. 

"Then why did you get the driving job at the company? You said you wanted the job just to get close to her. Why did you quit without talking to me first? And now you want to move out all of a sudden? Are you doing all of this because of what I told you? Are you scared of me and trying to avoid me?" Lucy asked the last question in a very small voice, wiping the tears that were rolling down her cheeks.

She didn't know what else to think about it, as that was the only reasonable conclusion she could come to. Things had been going smoothly between them, and all of a sudden he wanted to move out of her life after she told him about her past. What else could be the reason?

"Scared of you? That is far from it, Lu. I promise, I'm not avoiding you. It's just that I have feelings for you, and I'm afraid that my feelings for you might scare you away from me, especially after all what you've been through," Tom explained, and paused to let his words sink in.

"And you couldn't talk to me about it before deciding to move away?" Lucy asked, and then paused when the meaning of what he had just dawned on her. Tom had feelings for her?