Chapter 247 - No Going Back.

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CHAPTER 247

"Your heart is torn, your body wants him but your mind is being the stubborn one. How did you hope to function so well in this battle?" Asia made sure she was looking deeply into Jade's eyes to be sure she wasn't going to lie to get out of this fiasco.

"You asked why right? That is because each time we are like this, memories and the thought of their death plague my mind and when I get angry, I realize why all of this happened and it boiled down to the man who gave the command."

"Do you think the Anders wouldn't have attacked to wipe off the Frost family with or without Xander? No, they would have done it still. One way or the other, be it using a different family or not."

"I know and I appreciate that but really, I wish it wasn't his family, then I could have crushed down my enemies."

"But it is his. Face reality, nothing in the past can change, but you can shape your future. You love him, build on that love. Perfect love casteth out fear says the Bible. Let your love for him outweigh your fear and hatred and then you would overcome and stop living in the shadows of your past. Embrace your future."

"I am trying."

"You are not trying enough. Push that damn fear out!" Asia hollered at her.

She took some deep breaths, hoping to calm down and once that was achieved, she looked at Jade and smiled sadly. 

"I am sorry and I know you may feel I wasn't the one who lost all that I cherished but when a door closes, a window is opened. You lost before but life is compensating you with a new love. I know you're feeling sadness, but it is alright."

She took a sigh and smiled genuinely. "Never thought I would be singing one of Disney's songs but here we go, you need this." She smiled again, placing her hand over Jade's.

"I know you're feeling sad. I see it in your eyes. The pain is overwhelming when a loved one dies, but it is time for you to let go and set your heartache free. For there's a life that's waiting there for you.

If you can let love through. If you can give love, you will find your family. Though it may not be like it was before. And if you give love, you'll never lose love. It only grows more and more.

No need to build a wall up. For you can now be strong. The things that you've been searching for have been here all along. And though it hurts to miss them, their spirit's always near. So trust that they will always be with you and love someone new."

<AUTHOR: CREDIT GOES TO NETFLIX OVER THE MOON'S SONG, LOVE SOMEONE NEW.>

By the time she was done Jade lowered her head. She had a strong point and yes it hurt but this was the truth.

"Thank you, Asia."

"You are not alone, love is all around you. The heart grows, and it knows, you can love dear. You can love it again. It is what makes you, Jade Nova Frost a wonderful golden girl."

Not being able to hold it in again, she moved closer to Asia and hugged her friend tightly. "Where have you been all my life?"

"Always beside you but now, I am not the one you need. You need him, baby. So when you see him and the thoughts of him causing the death of your family, kick it out and recall all of the good times you had with him. Find joy and comfort in that. Or don't you miss those times again?"

"I do. I always do."

"Great then. So we would try this for now. While we work out our way around Anders and our attack, you should not feel repulsed by him."

"FYI, I do not feel repulsed by him," Jade corrected.

"You think all of this is not feeling repulsed? Well, you may not know but that is how you are making him feel my dear. You are making him feel like you are irritated by him."

"No." her eyes dropped at that moment, guilt strolling into her heart at the thought of the pain she had caused Xander. "I never meant it that way. I just thought he wanted to give me time and all."

"Of course, he is giving you time but then, like today, he may not have said it but from the looks of things he was scared and thought he might have lost you. Yes, he knows you are the daughter of a mafia lord but he hasn't seen you in action as a fighter with guns and even if he did see you, it does not change the fact that he loves you and would always feel the need to protect you as his mate. So don't always run from him, okay?"

"Sure, I would do better. Let's watch and see how it goes."

"That is my girl. And no going back on your word. You need to try to live a lovely life, okay?"

"Sure. I promise. As of today, I would work towards having a better relationship with Xander."

"Great. I bet he would be glad when he finds out that you are willing to do this."

"Oh, about that." She pulled back from the hug to look into Asia's eyes. "Asia, promise not to spill to him. I want to do this at my own pace."

"Well, you better hurry or I would be shipping him to someone else."

Jade pouted her mouth at her friend, pretending to be angry. "Whose side are you on?"

"The side of justice babe. He is a guy. Do not make him wait too long. I know you enjoy his pleas but duh, you would enjoy his pampering more. Gosh, it's so nice to see such a strong hard dude being so cute and sd for his woman. Girl, you won the best in the lottery of life."

"Always naughty. Come, we better head down, lest we be late to dinner. I wonder who the other guests would be."

"Sure."

"Hehe, I hope there is a cute guy so I can ship you with him," Jade teased as two of them left the bed, heading for the door.