Chapter 20 - Episode 20: Will Your Regrets Change Anything?

Episode 20: Will Your Regrets Change Anything?

So he killed all who knew his secret. Among them was his own mother, but that was not very important to him.

He was just curious, the emperor’s seat, how happy that position, with everything in the world, can make you feel..

So, Kailos tried to steal his brother’s happiness. For him, his younger brother was a fearsome man.

From childhood, his half-brother Raymond, who was bright red like a fiery flame, unlike his grayish-gray self, always overwhelmed the surroundings. Kailos thought that just by breathing, he would be eaten up by his intense presence.

If you don’t want to be eaten, you have to eat it first. It was the teachings of his mother, whom he killed with his own hands, so Kailos eliminated his brother. By killing his brother, whose existence alone made him fearful, Kailos was able to become a more fearsome person than anyone else.

Everyone revered him, and everything he(Raymond) had was in his(Kailos’) hands, everything was satisfactory.

Chloe…Except for her, the only thing that didn’t go his way.

“Chloe….”

He suddenly raised his head, looked down at her dead body, and grinned.

“You are sulking at me. That’s why you don’t want to open your eyes. That’s why you don’t want to answer. My pretty Chloe….”

Caressing her blue lips as there was no more blood circulating, Kailos whispered in a friendly voice, “What made you sulky? Elizabeth Rosaline, is it because of her? Did she kill you? Yes, she killed you. What else do you want from me? Shall I make you the empress? If I finally give you the place that he couldn’t give you, then will you smile at me again?”

His eyes were full of love, as if looking at the living Chloe.

“No, no…..Yes, what I really want is…”

Kailos forcefully lifted her stiff body and hugged her.

“I wanted you, my love. Always, you….”

He muttered in a low voice and placed his lips on her cold lips.

“I’ll give you love, Chloe. I love you…..I love you…me too…I love you….”

But the lips of the dead could no longer accept the heart of the living.

“Why haven’t you opened your eyes yet? Why are you still not answering me?”

Kailos wept as he put her dead blood on his neck.

“I say I love you! I say I love you! I, you….! Chloe, you…!”

He screamed like an angry man, then wept again and kissed her. He’d continue until she wakes up again and smiles at him endlessly…

When the moon that lit the night went down and the sun rose again in the morning, only then did Kailos admit it, that….. Chloe is dead.

Finding the culprit was not difficult.

“Your Majesty! Your Majesty, let me go, Your Majesty! I am embarrassed, Your Majesty!”

A loud woman’s voice rang in his ears. His woman has hated and teased Chloe since the earliest days. It was a mistake to let it go even though I knew it was happening. It was my… it was my fault.

“It was her fault! That woman doesn’t know the subject and she sits in His Majesty’s bedroom and makes fun of me…! AHH!”

The woman fell to the floor screaming at the slashing blade. Her two eyes, that had not yet stopped their life, fluttered as they filled with her resentment,

“Hahaha.”

A cold laugh escaped his mouth.

“Hahaha! Ha ha ha ha ha!”

The palace was in a frenzy.

Kailos hugged Chloe’s decaying body and hummed a song. When she first came to his Duchy, she was sick and had been unable to leave the bed for a while and suffered from fever.

But no matter how much he sang, she didn’t open her eyes.

Rumors circulated that the emperor roamed the palace every night, holding a dead woman

“Chloe, Chloe. You said you loved me.”

He mumbled in a sad voice as he wiped the corners of her rotten eyes.

“I’m waiting for you to open your eyes, so why don’t you look at me?”

His life was perfect, he was born as the only heir to the empire’s grand duke, and he ascended to the throne by eliminating all his enemies. A place where he can move and control everything in the world with his fingertips.

“Everything went my way, but just not you, Chloe, Chloe…..”

He thought he would be happy when he sat there, but he was not happy. It was unfortunate, without Chloe, he was unhappy.

Now Kailos knows he has everything in the world, but knows he is unhappy because he doesn’t have Chloe.

Neither the position of the emperor nor the invincible power, nothing could take the place of Chloe. It wasn’t just because she was beautiful.

In the blurred past, Kailos remembered the palm of a small child holding his hand. He always remembers her lovely eyes filled with longing, affection, and awe for him. He remembers those red lips when she said in her shy voice that she loves him.

Even his mother, who gave birth to him, did not give him as much love as she did. Her cautious and compassionate attitude toward her sanctuary was something Kailos had never felt before in his life.

However, he himself brought her to his Duchy and deceived her by saying that she was ‘his only family. The ‘only’ word had an uncanny power and so he easily captured her.

Kailos captured the heart of a young five-year-old girl and raised her to grow up looking at him. His karma came back to him and strangled him.

Chloe, the one and only being deeper than his family…..

She pointed to him and said that he had saved her but it was Kailos, himself, who received salvation from her.

Nothing can replace Chloe, my Chloe…

Kailos, who went crazy with remorse after losing her, smiled blurredly, recalling her shy smile at him in her childhood.

“Since when have you been holding onto my emotions? Why didn’t you tell me that?”

I wanted to see Chloe smiling brightly at me. I wanted to see Chloe smiling happily. He was so good at dealing with the emotions of others, but apparently he was ignorant of his own emotions. He realized too late.

I wanted a happy Chloe. I was in love with Chloe,

“I love you, Chloe. I love you. Perhaps, from a very long time ago, I have been in love with you.”

He wept as he kissed her rotting corpse.

The new emperor went crazy, everyone said unanimously. Kailos could no longer even gauge what went wrong and from where.

Would you like to have a new child? Then will you stop crying?’

When she lost that man’s child and broke….

“Have the emperor’s child. Will you do that for me?’

When he pushed her into the emperor’s bedroom……..

I like you Uncle. I loved you, from a long time ago.’

The day she made a shy confession.

I like you too, Chloe. How can I not be happy with you, who will bring me my brother’s neck in the future?’

When he brutally trampled on her sincerity…

I wanted to bring back all those moments. If only could turn back the time, so I could touch her living body again…

It was one night when he embraced her, who had lost her original form, and poured out his past. His steps wandering around the Imperial Palace suddenly stopped in front of a lonely room. He heard the sound of a small child crying inside, and Kailos entered the room as if possessed.

“euuung…”

Estelle, she was the child that she(Chloe) had been looking for so badly.

The moment he saw her child, he was angry. Kailos laid down her decomposed corpse from his arms and approached her child. He was about to kill that little neck by twisting it.

“uwaa…..uwaaa…”

The moment his fingertips touched the child’s neck, she burst into tears. Her Silver hair, resembling Chloe’s, was wet with her tears.

“Ah…No, Chloe….”

When he saw the crying face of the child, who looked like Chloe, he lost strength in his legs and fell to the floor. In the cry of the child, he regretted it.

Why did I realize this so late? Why couldn’t I protect her happiness? That pretty smile, that lovely smile…..Why am I now regretting it?

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Kailos suffered one death. He drove her to misfortune, and thought he deserved her unhappiness more than her. But death, which came slowly, saved him from misery.

“Kyle, what’s wrong?”

A familiar woman’s voice woke him up. Kailos looked around him slowly.

The place he woke up was in the bedroom of the Grand Duke where he had stayed a long time ago. The woman he had once killed was lying with him on his bed.

“Did you have a nightmare? A cold sweat is flowing.”

For a while, Kailos couldn’t understand the current situation, so he just glanced around. Then his head, pounded, like it was going to break, a headache immediately followed.

“Kyle! Are you okay? Kyle!”

The panicked woman called the doctor, the doctor came rushing in after a little while.

“Why are you here so late? His Highness is in so much pain!” the woman screamed.

She had the same attitude as the castle’s hostess, who used to treat the servants and doctors of the Grand Duke like a limb.

“Sorry, I’m sorry. Lady Garnet’s condition is serious….”

“Right now, His Highness is getting sick and because of that girl, you are late…!”

“Is Chloe sick?”

It was Kailos who interrupted the woman’s screams.

Kailos stood up in contemplation. Cold sweat was increasing. The woman grabbed his sleeve and shouted something, but Kailos pushed her away and ran to Chloe’s room.

“Chloe…!”

Her room remained in his memory. It was Chloe, she, who was groaning on the bed.

“Chloe, Chloe…..!”

Chloe was alive. It was so surprising and thrilling that Kailos knelt down in front of her bed.

“Oh my God, Chloe….”

He grabbed her hand, sticking out of the duvet, it was hot. It wasn’t a corpse that had cooled and stunk, it was a living Chloe.

“How, how is this….”

“She had a slight fever before going to the New Year’s festival, but I think she overworked it this time.”

The doctor, who grasped his murmur differently, began to explain her condition.

“New Year’s Eve….?”

There was an overlapping memory. Long ago, on New Year’s Eve, he ordered her to seduce the emperor. After spending the night with the emperor, she became seriously ill the next evening.

Although he received reports from the doctor that she was ill and unable to wake up, Kailos was unable to visit her because he had to please Marquis Rosaline.

“You were so much…”

Thick drop of tears poured down his face.

“You were in so much pain…..”

His heart ached at the sight of her sobbing, unable to open her eyes properly. He had neglected her, who was so sick.

Will it change anything just because you regret it?’

Suddenly, someone’s voice resounded in his head. At the same time, a headache caused Kailos to fall to the floor, wrapping his head with both his hands.

“Stupid Kailos, what will change if you turn back time?’

Obviously, it belonged to a familiar person, but the shattered memory tormented him from a distant place.

‘I want you to be desperate, so you should regret it in the time you went back.’

It was the voice of hatred, of one wishing for misfortune.

Like she was unhappy…..No, I wish you’ll be more unhappy than that. It’s a pity that I couldn’t wrench your neck with these hands.’

At the end of that voice, Kailos fell asleep.

Comments from Korean readers:

But he didn’t kill her…. Phew… Rather than trying to Be a bitch… I thought it wouldn’t be satan to kill such a young kid.

Her mom returns and punishes you

Kylos came back…bully Kylos..

I thought uncle would be crazy all the time, but I can’t believe I’m crying. I’m so glad that you’re alive, baby Estelle.