Chapter 64.1

I can’t believe it was like this. Oh, my God, so this was how it felt!

As people have told me, or as I read in books, the bell didn’t ring or anything.

It’s just, I felt a vague sense that I had never felt before, like I was being eaten by hot lava.

“Whoo.” He took his lips off me. Still, my hands were firm, sticking to my waist.

I didn’t care about people calling my name or his name. I didn’t want Gerald to stay away from me. So I provoked him with a more grumpy voice.

“My, I don’t believe in you? Why should I give you a chance?”

You know what I really want? Ha. Gerald! You can’t just be satisfied with a kiss like this.

Although I was a bit nervous, I wanted more. The intensity of the first kiss was still winding me up. I stood up straight to avoid my legs shaking violently.

No, Louella. Don’t show your weak side. Don’t you want to win and get what you need to get what you have? The Crown Prince, Nisephor, and my illness.

It was clear that if Gerald could not solve the secret, he would leave me as a widow until the end.

I already know the history of the past! Of course, I know it’ll be dangerous if I conceive a child.

But there was one thing that he didn’t know. Rather than living a boring life like a jellyfish floating along in the ocean doing nothing, it was better for me to live life like it’s now or never.

Hasn’t Gerald already lived like that before? I felt sorry for him but I couldn’t live like that in this life. Even now that I’m figuring out and making sense of all the secrets he kept.

Does he understand my feelings at all?

“Gerald, tell me. How am I supposed to trust you?”

Gerald tightened his grip on my waist. His eyes were filled with confusion. I was also facing his unicorn-like face as well.

* * *

[It’s getting a lot more complicated. It’s almost as stigmatizing as Nisephor. I think there was direct contact with the… Do you have any idea?]

There was one more person who tore through Gerald. The sharp dark voice of Uroboros directly pierced through Gerald’s brain.

‘Are you sure that Nisephor is going to disappear?’

[You don’t trust me]

Life has never been on Gerald’s side. It was too much to go on and believe the promise of the Black Uroboros.

Louella. He loved her so much. The key to Gerald’s everything.

[There’s no other way, right? Are you going to wait and see her eaten?]

Gerald stopped breathing.

[Then you can’t even get her back. Do you think the White Uroboros will release her after swallowing her? Never. My brother likes humans. Because I have a light that he doesn’t have.]

Louella pulled Gerald’s hem, urging him to give an answer.

‘What do you see and believe?’ Gerald smiled sadly. It was Gerald who brought all this on himself.

Gerald’s confusion was captured in Louella’s eyes, which resembled the color of the sunset. He loved staring directly into her eyes, but this time, he felt trapped.

He captured those eyes in his heart. More than anything, he loved how she always resembled a warm-looking light. Still, Gerald couldn’t let go of Louella and her warmth.

Gerald whispered in a low voice. “Three times.”

* * *

Three times? What does this mean?

“Give me three chances, Lulu.”

“What in the world….”

“I’ll never let you down.” He kissed me on the cheek.

“Spend the night with me only three times.”

Ah. Her face flushed red. I didn’t expect this offer. Did he actually notice that I remembered the past?

A moment of misery rose. Was I desperate? Seeing how I was left and was treated like a ‘friend’ forced him to offer me this.

Gerald grabbed my wrist. It seemed like he wanted to hold me back so I wouldn’t run away.

But I was more desperate than I was before and I was guessing he felt the same as well.

They said that there’s no pride in love. And I do think it’s right. For our love, I can sacrifice my pride, my everything, as Gerald was the right man, the right answer all along.

“All right,” I answered in a tight voice.

* * *

Whoo! Whoo! Man, so many things happened today.

I dropped my head on my bed.

Three times…

“Spend the night with me…” What Gerald said came to mind.

“Argh!”

I really made that promise! I’m such a crazy woman, a crazy woman! After all I went through! No, it’s not. How important is that? Pride? That’s nothing! I just want to achieve my love!

I kicked the covers off. I was also worried about how the three times he mentioned would be achieved.