Chapter 45.2

“Are we really married?”

Gerald bent his knee in front of me.

‘I came running because I felt stuffy, but I realized that I was barefooted.’

Gerald hugged me and sat with me on the bed.

I said nothing while he gave me a warm wet towel, wiped my feet, took off the slippers he was wearing, and put them on.

Gerald was still calm and collected. Do unicorns really live on dew? I wonder if he really didn’t have any human desire for me.

Gerald’s feelings towards me. I was afraid that it was a different feeling than love. Friendship, fraternity, or casual goodwill.

There wasn’t one of them that I wanted. I hoped Gerald loved me. I want him to look at me with his eyes that let me know I am the most precious person in the world compared to anything else.

Gerald looked up at me. I wondered what kind of affection was in them.

“Lulu, you’ll catch a cold.”

Oh, is it cold? Is that why my body is shaking?

I looked at Gerald blankly. In Gerald’s eyes, I looked as pale as a ghost.

“Answer me, Gerald.”

But it was more important to me than the cold that penetrated my body.

Gerald smiled bitterly.

Gerald looked like he was about to cry.

He put his face on my knee.

“Lulu…”

“Are we really married?”

I smacked Gerald’s shoulder with my fist. Gerald can’t be unaware of what I’m saying and what my actions meant. Gerald is not a fool.

But Gerald was deceiving me, pretending not to know anything.

My heartbeat felt like my heart was going to explode.

Screaming madly and hitting Gerald on the back.

“Why are you acting like this to me? If you’re going to do this, why did you even marry me! Did I ask you to marry me? Why!!”

“Lulu… Please.”

“I’m asking if we’re really married! Do I look like a girl? Do I even look like a woman to you? I will!!”

I clenched my teeth and screamed.

“If you’re going to do this, why? Why did you ask me to marry you? Why are you just looking at me like that? Why!”

Tears welled up.

Gerald looked up, clutching my wrist. The way he was looking at me felt unfamiliar. Gerald’s face came with a mixture of emotions.

Gerald, who lifted himself up clutching my wrist, came close to my face. It was when there was only a finger left between us.

He breathed heavily. “Lulu. Please.”

“Gerald.”

I knew Gerald was just trying to make me calm down again. This time, I held Gerald in the opposite position.

He stared at me for a long time in that state.

Gerald’s face distorted like he was in pain. It was I who lost the tug of war between the two of us.

I missed Gerald. Gerald breathed slowly, he buried his head into my shoulder.

“Lulu…”

It was a voice that expressed his emotions.

Gerald’s shoulders were shaking.

Why the hell are you holding back? What are you not telling me?

“I love you,” Gerald whispered.

I don’t think it was a lie. He was neither weak nor evil enough to tell such a lie.

He was a man who couldn’t deceive people. I felt that he was more sincere than ever.

Gerald and I had a hunch that we’d walk on parallel lines like this all our lives.

I opened my mouth indifferently.

“Let’s get a divorce, Gerald.”

Tears welled up. Gerald’s shoulders stiffened.

“Let’s… Let’s stop. I can’t do this anymore.”

My words were also sincere. As much as I love Gerald.

* * *

“Oh my….”

Why did I have to dream of that time? No, it wasn’t a dream, it was real.

Sweat covered my forehead as I swept my hair aside. The dream I just had was more vivid than what really happened.

I got off the bed and drank water.

The room was filled with hot air.

How was Gerald that day?

‘There must have been a reason that you probably don’t know.”

I also remembered what Alexid said. This timing seemed really strange.

After drinking a cup of water, I sat down on the bed. Gerald knew my feet were cold, but he didn’t know my heart was freezing.

Gerald… he…….

That’s what I had in mind.

“Didn’t he really know? Or was he just pretending not to know?”

Were the feelings that swept through Gerald’s eyes something I really felt? It was as if he was going to kiss me? Were my assumptions really false?

I don’t know. I don’t know anything anymore

I wanted to run to Gerald right now and grab him by the collar and shout for him to tell me the truth.

But what does he even know in this lifetime?