Chapter 1810

Xie Feng has never been close to the sea in the ten years since he became an evolutionist.

"Time is a good medicine for forgetting everything." this sentence is only said by those who benefit from the good medicine of time. Beyond this sentence, I don't know how many people yearn for liberation day after day because they can't forget and ease.

Xie Feng can write down her experience and express her feelings in the sea. She can speak sincerely and exaggerate... But she has no way to make others really feel the feeling of sudden emptiness between her arms that night in the sea.

Both the world and myself have shattered chaos. Before that moment, she had never known that there was such absolute and endless pain in the universe.

She forgot who she was and where she was.

The last conversation between the two, the patrol ship on the sea, and the mutant snake head... Were all too far away from her, as if it were an illusion. The world is blank, nothing, except for one thing, that is, let dongluorong float to the surface and open his eyes again.

Only then will the world re-exist and Xie Feng re-exist.

Since the two met, it seems that they have been repeating the same situation, and that night is no exception: even after life left, Dong Luorong saved Xie Feng again.

Xie Feng didn't think about this later. She was just evolving, floating in the middle of the ocean, facing patrol ships and fallen species. Without Dong Luorong, she couldn't think of how she could live that night.

But as time went by, she felt more and more that she would have died that night.

Isn't it the most ideal ending for her to follow Dong Luorong into the sea?

Even though she still lost Dong Luorong, at least she didn't have to see and get along with her later self.

Most importantly, there is no need to see the later Dong Luorong.

Xie Feng's ability just evolved. The biggest weakness and limitation at that time was that a thing existed as a special object for a very short time. When its "special item effect" expires and disappears, this thing itself will not disappear.

The desk lamp she used in the hotel has become an ordinary desk lamp after it expired, and it is still in its place; But Xie Feng, who was in an abnormal state at that time, naturally did not think of this, let alone that when the object was not a lamp but a person, that person would continue to exist in the form of objects even after "expiration" - since it was an object, there was certainly no difference between life and death, only the difference between intact and damaged.

She just wanted Dong Luorong to come back.

At that time, she just couldn't understand why she couldn't have Dong Luorong in her life.

So every day Xie Feng lived later, it seemed that he was atoning for the decision of that night, but it could never be lightened.

She took Dong Luorong to wander and struggle in the doomsday world. No matter what happened or what situation she fell into, Xie Feng didn't let her skin be scratched, and didn't let others touch a hair of her. However, Dong Luorong itself, which can exist in the storage props, is a cross that presses on her day after day and is about to crush her into pieces.

... if you can forget your decision that night, no, if everything can disappear from her mind.

"I thought... Like others, you were forcibly transformed and deleted by the shark department." Lin Sanjiu whispered.

The memoirs in the whole copy are almost all from the owner who was secretly plotted by the shark department but knew nothing about it; How could she think that Xie Feng was voluntary?

Whether it was the woman ah Quan later met in the alley or the Batou de who Peng Ping failed to deal with, they were unconsciously trapped in the copy after being regarded as the target; Even Wu Yiliu, who claimed that he had been informed afterwards, did not deny the nature of the whole thing: the shark department used a Quan's copy to forcibly transform one valuable evolutionist after another, driving them to use for themselves.

"Sorry." Lin Sanjiu thought for a while, and felt that the next words were difficult to say - at least speaking clearly, she felt very difficult. She hesitated for a while before hesitating, "if... What can I do..."

Xie Feng didn't say anything.

Finally, she gradually calmed down from the uncontrollable howling. It seemed that all her strength, resentment against Lin Sanjiu, desire to fight, and original position... Flowed out with tears. She sat on the ground with her back against the reception desk and looked at the tiles at her feet with a dull expression. At first glance, it seemed that she had also become an object.

Did she not think that even the memory that was accidentally restored today could be removed again?

Lin Sanjiu wanted to propose this method as a remedy, but she didn't know how, she felt that this was really speechless, and she was also afraid of being surprised. Xie Feng finally recovered a little spiritual balance. After all, the real problem is not whether Xie Feng remembers, it's just a way to escape; The real question is whether Xie Feng can forgive himself.

She had just managed to lift Xie Feng up from the floor, so she also suffered several injuries - fortunately, Xie Feng was not very destructive in the state of mental turmoil - after thinking about it, she sat down not far away from the other side, silently continued to bandage the wound, and said nothing.

This sitting is a half day's work; The sunshine outside the rental shop grew from high to dark, the shadow grew from short to long, and the sky was gradually stained with a faint orange. I don't know when to start, Xie Feng will suddenly murmur a few endless words.

Lin Sanjiu will also do her best to respond.

"... I can't die because she won't be cared for. But I really can't live anymore. I don't know how that woman found out about my situation... I've never been as desperate as that day. When she asked me if I would like to go into the copy and forget everything, I promised immediately."

Lin Sanjiu straightened his back. The first "she" naturally refers to Dong Luorong; But who is "that woman"?

"Sharks?" She asked, although she didn't think she would get the answer. "Is the person who transformed you with a complete copy a woman?"

In the past half day, Lin Sanjiu has not talked to Xie Feng less, but Xie Feng has not talked to Lin Sanjiu, and almost never answered her questions - which occasionally softly explain, fragmentary memories of the past, are more like talking to himself; Xie Feng seemed to still resist Lin Sanjiu, but after losing all his strength, this resistance became ignored, as long as he didn't look at it, the latter was equal to nonexistence.

However, this time, she surprised Lin Sanjiu.

Xie Feng still didn't look at the woman beside him, but asked his hands, "do you know why I didn't kill you?"

This is not exaggerated; If she wants to go out and die with herself, Lin Sanjiu can't get out of this rental business.

Lin Sanjiu shook his head hesitantly.

"Because I remember everything." Xie Feng still looked at his hands and said, "I not only think of the past... I also think of my mood when I decided to delete my memory, as well as the feeling when I saw the world at first sight after walking out of the copy."

She suddenly fell silent.

Lin Sanjiu just waited for her to slowly sort out her thoughts.

"It's not... Relief after liberation." Xie Feng frowned, and his voice was as light as a sigh. "That's right, I don't remember what I was carrying before, so when it disappeared, I naturally won't feel relieved. Just because of this, I didn't feel relaxed and happy. I'm still me, just like a piece missing, empty, standing in place for a long time, and I don't know where to go.

"Before that, I felt my life was too painful to bear. But after that, my life became a..." Xie Feng frowned, as if he didn't know how to describe it. "It has become an insignificant, meaningless, and indistinguishable thing. It's really not painful, but now I look back and have a comparison, and I find that... 'no pain' itself was not as important as I thought."

Lin Sanjiu knew that he was just a person who happened to be here, and just heard Xie Feng's words - if it was someone else, or if there was a cat and a dog sitting here, I'm afraid Xie Feng would behave the same way.

But since she heard it and had feelings, she naturally said her feelings.

"Although it was painful... Your life at that time was still closely related to her, right? Every minute, every second, because of her, she was there." Lin Sanjiu said softly, "I understand. If you lose your memory, you will lose contact. What's the difference between yourself and a grain of dust floating in the infinite universe... There is no source, no destination, no place to stay."

After a few seconds, Xie Feng finally turned his head and looked at her for a long time, as if he had seen her for the first time. "... yes."

"So, I didn't do it to you, and you can't expect me to be grateful to you." Xie Feng said hoarsely, "but now I think back, I'm not sure if she... Did she deliberately use, or even promote, my mental state that day. If you want to go to the shark department, I won't stop you, and I won't help you."

After a pause, she said, "no matter what, that woman has found her final destination for her. What's more, I believe that what shark is doing now is right. Even if there is helplessness and I'm sorry for others, I also think it's in the right direction."